Trying Not To Cry

[Vivian Steele]

Vivian was still shaking, and reluctantly let Andy basically pull her from the room. She shut the door, to make sure they couldn't hear andything and then words just started to come gushing out of her as she leaned against Andy. "I am screwed, I...am... screwed, I am way in over my head, and now I'm screwed," she just kept saying quietly, hating how she felt so weak and out of control. "And I just got punched in the face by an 11-year old," she said, feeling just completely overwhelmed. Yet somehow she still managed to look beautiful, maybe even more so than usual with a truly scared and nervous expression on her pale face, her eyes close to tears as her blonde hair swirled around her.

[Andy Jenkins]

Andy nodded, not totally understanding why she was screwed. 'Everything will be alright, Vivian.. calm down.. punch me if it makes you feel any better.' He said, not liking to see her so completely helpless sounding.

He rubbed her arm comfortingly, leading her furthur away from the Potions room. 'It's okay.. everything will be okay..' He said, repeating himself softly.

[Vivian Steele]

"No...no it won't," she said, finally letting the tears fall down her cheeks, as she held onto him tightly. She was scared, truly and honestly, though she'd never admit it. Looking around the hallways, she pulled him into an empty classroom. "Andy, you...you know about how that Auror died? I-I killed him, because I had to, the Dark Lord would have killed me if I hadn't... and now... I'm all mixed up in it, and he's Kiera's big brother or something and now I'm just going to die..." she said, now downright sobbing as she clung to him. She'd talked big, and she just sort of got sucked in because there was no going back. And now she was hoping and praying that Andy wouldn't freak out and leave her a terrible wreck all alone in an empty classroom.

[Andy Jenkins]

Andy shook his head, pulling a hand through his hair in thought. 'Vivian..' He said, speechless. He held her in a tight hug, but he knew for a Death Eater, there was never any going back.

'You're not going to die, Vivian.. I won't let you die..' He said, a lump rising in his throat. He definately did not want to, and couldn't, leave her alone.

'Have you tried to work anything out with him?' He asked, him meaning the Dark Lord. He knew she would know what he was talking about.

[Vivian Steele]

Vivian buried her face in his chest... It was true that she was spoiled, vain, show-offy, and mean at times... But she'd really gotten mixed up into something over her head and hadn't known how to back herself out. And she wasn't anything near brave, which would explain why she was huddled up against Andy crying. "No... Andy, I didn't even know who this guy was... and all of a sudden he tells me to kill this auror, and say I was under the imperius curse," she said quietly, true she was bending things a little bit to better suit her, but she just didn't want to be left alone.

"I... just wish I could go back," she said, looking up to meet his eyes. "And now I've got this little brat giving me shit and I can't do anything about it," she said, tears still flowing down her cheeks like two tiny waterfalls.

[Andy Jenkins]

Andy rubbed his eyes, trying to think. 'What's done is done.. now we have to think about your future, alright?' He said, frowning.

He stroked her back with his hand, in an attempt to calm her down, as she was slightly hysterical, but she seemed more calm then before.

'I think we should just lay low for a little while, okay? I'm not going anywhere.. I'll stay with you for as long as you want.' He said to her gently, holding her, wanting so desperately to make her feel better.

No matter what she had done, she didn't deserve to be treated like that eleven year old treated her.

[Vivian Steele]

Vivian closed her eyes, trying to get her breathing under control. In...out...in...out. She could feel his hand stroking her back and that helped in calming her racing heart. Maybe if she just pretended her problems were gone, they would disappear... it had always worked before. She gently moved her arms up until they draped across his shoulders and the back of his neck. She always had a hard time saying thank you, so she was silent for a few moments, her eyes still closed tight.

"O-okay, and thank you," she said, her voice wavering slightly, and she went up and gave him a kiss... not a friendly sort of kiss on the cheek, but a real kiss. And what about Jett...? Well... what about him? He certainly hadn't been helping her... or paying attention to her... or offered to pot her plants in Herbology.... or reassure her that she wasn't going to die.

[Andy Jenkins]

Andy smiled at her, as she moved her arms around his shoulders. He continued to stroke her, calming her, as she steadied her breathing. He nodded slightly, as she thanked him, but barely had enough time to make one full nod before she kissed him.

He blinked in shock, but he felt his heart flutter in glory. His eyes drifted shut, as he returned her kiss. He broke away, placing a hand on the back of her head, holding her to his chest. 'It's going to be okay..' He said softly, his heart racing.

[Vivian Steele]

"Mmmm," was all she said quietly in reply, feeling completely drained at the moment and probably could have fallen asleep if her head and eye didn't hurt so damn badly. Her long lashes fluttered as she opened her eyes a couple times, trying to see just how swollen her left one was. And sadly it felt pretty bad and in a couple of hours it would be a lovely array of black and blues if she didn't find a spell to fix it. But she wasn't even sure if she could make the walk to the Hospital Wing. It was funny how fast Vivian could change sides, but that was just the way she was and there was no stopping it.

"God... people are going to think I'm a maniac," she breathed quietly, thinking back to before in the potions classroom. Of course once the next big scandal swept through they'd forget it... but she'd have to pray that something else would happen soon. She was just glad she'd gotten Andy to take her wand away, as she could tell how close she'd been to losing control.

[Andy Jenkins]

Andy held her, shaking his head. 'Who cares what people think?' He said quietly, before drawing his wand. He conjured up a small towel filled with ice. Wrapping it together, he held it out to Vivian. 'Barbaric, I know.. but it'll help.' He said with a small smile.

He pulled a chair that was sitting closest to them, so Vivian could sit. He set her down onto it, squatting next to her, gazing at her somewhat sadly.

[Vivian Steele]

Vivian gave him a slight smile and sniffled as she held up the towel to her eye, wincing slightly as it made contact but then was just fine. She just didn't look like the type of girl to get a black eye, so she looked completely out of place with ice held up to her eye. She wasn't quite sure what to do with herself now, as she'd spilt all her secrets to Andy... which probably wasn't the wisest of ideas, but there was nothing she could do about it now. And she liked all the attention he gave her anyway, compared to Jett anyway.

"Thank you," she repeated again quietly, gazing at him with one of her steele gray eyes. She gave him a weak, but none the less stunning smile from where she sat. Her smile then widened slightly as she took in his expression. "What are you so sad about? I'm the one with the black eye, and you're the one that gets to be the hero," she said, gently stroking his cheek with one of her pale hands ever so gently.

[Andy Jenkins]

Andy let a small smile escape onto his lips. 'I'm sad if you're sad.' He said, placing a hand gently on her knee, letting her stroke his face.

He thought about going to the Hospital Wing. He could probably carry her there. 'Would you like to go to the hospital wing?' He decided he better ask, and if she wanted to go, he would carry her, if she didn't want to, then he'd stay with her.

No matter how upset, or injured Vivian was, she still looked stunningly beautiful. Her steel-grey gaze made his stomach flip again, and again. She had caught his eye that first morning at breakfast.

But what was he thinking? She was Jett's girl. He'd kissed her, and now, although he thought it was worth anything in the world, he'd probably have to pay the consequences, seeing as Jett probably would be angry Andy had taken Vivian away from his side.

[Raven Brown]

She hesitated for a second as he thought about the question, her hand stopping the rythmic stroking. "Mmmm, I don't think so, I don't want everyone there asking me about how it happened, thanks though," she said, having the urge to kiss him again but she just felt too exhausted to move. She really wasn't sure what she was going to do, but she liked having Andy with her. He was always at her beck and call, and he was good looking, just about as attractive as Jett. The only thing that would stop her from picking him over Jett would be that Jett was a Prefect.

"Do you play quidditch?" she asked quietly, then laughed slightly at how absurd it must have sounded compared to the other things they'd been talking about.

((Oh shoot... well, lets pretend this is Vivian eh... and hope the Deputy Headmistress isn't having such thoughts... hehe))

[Andy Jenkins]

((Lmao.. that would be creepy if the Deputy Headmistress (who is married) was having those thoughts lol))

Andy nodded, seeing reason for her decision. 'Quidditch? Well.. I have played before..' He said with a grin, not exactly knowing why she was asking. 'Is there any particular reason why you want to know?' He said playfully.

He started rubbing her knee with his thumb, moving it side to side. If she wanted him to play Quidditch, he would. He'd do just about anything for her. She was the only girl to ever make him nervous, and slightly self-concious.

She was the only girl that he desperately wanted to get to know.

[Jett Owen]

Jett rushed after the pair after trying to convince the professor that he had to go also. He ran through the halls and finally ended up in the dungens. He saw a door and opened it hoping thats where they were, when he opened it there they were together. He didnt say anything but just looked at the two, knowing they would have something to say. He wasnt upset that they were there together, and he didnt want Vivian to come crawling back into his arms since she had just choosen Andy over him to talk to her, he didnt know why she would rather speak to him though, he knew nothing of what just happened.


(lol. he just had to inturrupt!)

This post has been edited by Jett Owen on Aug 26 2005, 02:15 PM