in another life,

[addison noelle hendrix]

sometimes it was hard to figure out what to do. life always seemed to throw a curve ball in there just to make it so. lately, life seemed to be doing this more and more. it seemed that every time something started to make sense and addison was able to see what the next move was, another thing came and gut punched her. really, life was only this bad because of her sister...but, that was not something she wished to think about - now, next year, ever. logan, on the other hand, was something that she couldn't stop thinking about. even though they weren't together, and probably never would be because he was too busy fucking with other girls to notice her as anything more than a friend again, he always managed to come into her thoughts. it didn't matter if she was attempting to read a book or do some dance or eat or walk - he was always there. she could see his glittering white teeth and his orange brown skin. she could hear his laugh and feel his heartbeat. she didn't know why she couldn't just see him in the way she saw parker. oh parker...silly kid had to go get himself mixed up with dylan - logan's sloppy seconds so to say. addie didn't even know much about it, but, she was almost positive that it was not going to turn out pretty. even on this rather chilly, august day, addie couldn't seem to get them out of her head. she wished she had someone else that she could talk to that wasn't involved with any of them. it was was days like this that she wished school would start so that she could actually take her mind off of these complicated things. she would be able to concentrate on school work - ha! like that would really happen - or the writing on the desks. unfortunately, she was still unable to get in. the closest thing to collingwood that she could reach were the black iron gates that were blocking the entrance. the hot metal burned her hands, yet, she didn't release. she needed a little pain that wasn't from confusion in her life. maybe in another life this wouldn't happen, but, for now, addie was stuck with the confusion. sighing she pushed away from the gate. even though she was wearing a white lace skirt, she sat down on the sidewalk under the shade of a rather large bush. what did it matter if she got dirty? it's not like she had anyone to impress anymore anyways...what she wouldn't give to have that other life right then.

[logan pierce bolton]

logan was walking. walking seemed to fix a lot of things in his life. no, not just the walking, but being left alone with his thoughts and his thoughts only. you were really forced to think over some things you'd been avoiding when there was nothing else to occupy your mind with. even though logan didn't want to be thinking certain thoughts? he was forcing himself to. school was right around the corner, the taste of lunch food and new notebooks on the tip of his tongue. sometime over the summer, logan wanted to go to school. to see his friends. at this point, however, he just wanted an endless summer. being forced to go back to school seemed to be the cause of so many problems. especially since he'd be forced to see ashley and dylan, the people that logan wanted to shamelessly avoid for the rest of his high school sprint. addie, though. addie. she was the one person who made it all okay. movies weren't real, at all, but addie always being there for him made it seem like he'd be a step away from audrey hepburn or a john hughes flick - where every thing worked out. he missed her innocent smile, her long brown hair, the feeling she always left him with. tingling deep down in his stomach, jitters. everything. logan wanted to be with her, he really did. though now that it seemed like parker was in the picture? even more so. logan always seemed to screw with their flawless relationship. with addie? logan could run off into the sunset forever. but as life wore on, he got more and more afraid of that. afraid of commitment. afraid of hurting addie. so? logan was trying to live one second at a time, where he made no definite decisions until faced with whatever situation. like that day, logan managed to hop the subway, walk a few miles, eat chips on a bench in central park. right now, collingwood was looming ominously around the corner. a flash of brown hair managed to catch logan's eye before anything else, and his first thought? remy. but after he was allowed to breath for a little bit, logan relaxed. it was addie. the tan girl from vermont who logan wanted to run away with, the girl with the warm, soft little hands and steady breathing that always managed to make his day better. without a sound logan walked over to her, slowly, and plopped down next to her on the pavemnt. "you look very pretty today, addie," his voice was wistful, with a sigh on the end. he could already feel her arm against his, her warmth. he wanted to make her smile and laugh again. "i'm sorry i'm an idiot."

[addison noelle hendrix]

addison didn't even know why she didn't just walk away from school, boys, new york. maybe, just maybe, she could convince her parents to move back out to vermont. they could be doing it for remy's sake. yeah, that would work. they still had the house down there after all. and, it would be a legit reason to abandon ship so to say. as hopeful as she appeared, she knew deep down that running from her 'problems' wouldn't make them go away and plus, her parents would never just up and move. besides, it wouldn't help her mind. she would only long for logan more or to talk and to be hyper with parker which would basically defeat the point of leaving the city for other...endeavours. addie sighed. she was nuts to have just left the house in her cardigan. it was rather chilly out and she didn't deal with cold too well. it was even worse considering that she had just recently returned home from vermont where it had been warm - hence the tan that she had received while there. she was much browner than usual. from her spot on the sidewalk, she examined her arms. it was rather strange. she was most definitely not used to this glowing addie...it reminded her of logan and his orange-y skin. great another thing reminding her that she would never be able to see or feel his brown skin again. oh logan she thought, dropping her head slightly. the second she thought it, he was there. she was actually really, terribly surprised. how did he know she was thinking about him? better yet how did he know where to find her and the exact right thing to say? addie felt her face flush slightly and a shiver run down her spine at his touch; she hated that he could still make her feel this way. "why thank you! the tan's not too much is it? i feel strange being as brown as you," she giggled. she was taken aback slightly at his comment though. an idiot? yes, even she couldn't deny it but, why was he telling her this now? "yeah, you are. but, don't be sorry. we all make mistakes." it was a safe answer. if he was going to tell her what it was all about, he would.