[DISC] The delusional fan

[yceamaecy]

[DISC] The delusional fan

it makes me think,
"am i taking this fandom too seriously?" or is it just that,
they've been a crucial part of my life?


i know because...i was there ever since they stood in front of an audience back in 2003. maybe it's the years that i had with them. i know they are strong, and we should be strong too.

it was never easy to love them in the first place, they are our stars and we are just fans.

but ever since i met them, i never considered myself just a fan. i considered myself as a long distance friend whom they can rely on anytime. physical contact became a minor need for me. love was the ultimate bond that breaks all physical boundaries.

it saddens me how some fans can just easily let go of them now. you don't know how much of a struggle cassiopeia experienced when news broke back in 2005 that they are having jaejoong replaced because he was being a burden with their rising sun activities due to his knee injury. we stood by them firmly despite the odds of overturning SMent's decision. you don't know how many hardships we have to go through back then. how many tears have rolled down our cheeks and sleepless nights we have endured that time. we are deeply hurt but we didn't expect anything. we stood by them nonetheless.


JYJ applied for a lawsuit against SMent for non-exclusivity of contracts only. period. it was not a lawsuit for an ultimate cancellation of their contracts. it was never about a conflict between the members. SMent was the one who separated them and prohibited JYJ to have any kind of contact with HoMin.

now i know many of you will say "then why won't HoMin get out of SMent too if they really want to be together again?" the answer is quite simple: because HoMin are concerned about other people who will be greatly affected when they immediately pull out now. yes it is definitely easy to file the lawsuit and break out of SM, if their only concern was themselves. but HoMin are humble enough to realize that there are many people around them who won't get their jobs back when they suddenly pull out of everything: the musical, the drama, smtown and any future activities that SMent would give them. if you guys are keen enough to realize, SMent keeps on giving them 'small activities' just to make them stay because SMent knows that HoMin aren't selfish enough to immediately bail out in the middle of everything.

but then here comes the issue regarding the JYJ album and dvd. i've been reading a lot of comments saying that JYJ doesn't have the right to smile and happy with what's happening right now. since when did we have the right to dictate and demand things from them? since when? JYJ aren't just ordinary people, you know that. they are also artists, professionals in the entertainment business. they can't sulk up all their lives, they have to move on and will continue to move forward until everything settles back to place, the place where they once knew, where every one of us knew.

we are family, and family members should learn to understand each other.

now am i being a delusional fan? yeah, maybe i am, but it is better to be a delusional fan than a hater.

if there will come a time that they officially state that "it's over and done" i won't stop being a fan. why? because they are still the same people whom i loved. the same people whom i smile at, cry over with and laugh at. they are the same people who brought such beautiful songs that i never thought would touch the deepest core of me. they are the people who made me realize that music isn't about the language, that it is about the emotion and passion you pour out when you sing every line and note. it is about the heart you put in every thing that you do that makes it all worth it.

let's make cassiopeia worth the fanclub that Yunho, Jaejoong, Changmin, Yoochun and Junsu will be coming home to...soon.



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yceamaecy@cassph.org ï»ż


This post has been edited by yceamaecy on Sep 15 2010, 09:06 PM

[cass_diamond]

How I wish some fans would understand HoMin.

“W” is the symbol of 5 and belong to 5.
“Waiting” is about the day that the 5 of them will work together again.
“Protecting” is the power of the fans.
-Shinjoue Inoue

P.S. Noona, I LOLED at your signature! XD

[jer85]

I've made a career out of being a fangirl.
I think ever since I could remember I was exposed to all sorts of boybands and have been very attached to a lot of them as well.
I totally sympathize with your sentiments here.
People react differently to their fandoms but as long as it doesn't hurt anyone di ba?
Besides, there's nothing wrong with thinking that you're a part of TVXQ's life because you are.
Every TVXQ fan is.
Yung level of familiarity lang ang naiba.

[beyondyunjaeâ˜]

I can't say I'm one of those fans who are detached to other groups and leave TVXQ! because of the lawsuit because I just became a fan on January 13th 2010.Lol But as a fan, I know what you feel because I feel that towards other people too, saying that they left TVXQ is bcause of the lawsuit is not acceptable. It's like leaving your family and going to other places away from thembecause you want to forget them. AKTFE. But I'm proud to say I'm a delusional fan (in some terms.lmao).