Failure

Title: Failing
Author: Christina Caulfield
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UK, Edinburgh, Burdiehouse Rd

You know that thudding in your chest that you get when you know you really shouldn’t have done something… Well hello it’s a pounding…. I hear it loud and clear, but I don’t seem to be returning the way I came and going back.
But there was no way I was going back. I had to get what I came for and I wasn’t leaving until I had it.

I have always sucked at the spy work., but as usual I had been made to do it. Scoping out one of my sister huntches, but this time it was different, there was something in it for me, he could be there and I wasn’t going to let it go, I wanted to see if he was real.
My sister Liz, had told me the stories about him, but some part of me didn’t believe her, I mean to most people he was just a character in a script, but in my wacky screwed up life everything was real down to the bogyman in the cupboard or under your bed. All the things that you feared when you were a little kid, I had to face everyday, but I guess am use to that, or at least I don’t have much of a choice but to get on with it.

In my head there was so many things running through it, I didn’t know what was happening or how I was going to react or even what I was going to do if I did see him. My chest had started to thud again and this time am sure everyone could here it now.
I shook my head to see if I could cut back into focus, but still the questions ran round in my head, no matter how much I tried they just stuck in there and didn’t budge.

As I was standing there thinking or talking in my head, a dark coloured truck either blue or black pulled up just a few feet away from me. I jumped back to reality and stared and stopped making noise, I don’t even think I was breathing at this point, I could not, I would not.

A man wearing a knee long black jacket walked up the path that was right in front of my bush(what else could I call it), stopped right in front of me and looked in my direction, I thought I was busted, but he didn’t seem to realise that I was there, even though it seemed that he was looking straight into my eyes. Liz was right, it was Ben, pure and simply Ben in the flesh, and Liz wasn’t going to be happy that he lied to her…again.
But, once again I was going to have to spill information to her. Information that she didn’t want to hear, but it was becoming a normal day to day chore to find something to piss her off with.
He turned round and nodded at the truck, it reminded me of a dealer sorting out his stash, trying so hard not to be suspicious but in return making himself look even more so. Ben took one more look around and walked towards the truck , before he reached the door it opened and another man stepped out and quickly closed the door behind him.
The two men once again looked around them making sure no one was around to see them, and that’s when I saw it…. It was him, he was real.

Once again my heart was in my throat and this time I was stuck to the spot and couldn’t move, I just wanted the ground to swallow me up, but it wouldn’t do that because I actually wanted it to.
I spun round to try and run the opposite way they were going, but my foot got caught on this wire that looked like it was from a broken fence that use to be there, my foot twisted and the rest of my leg then my body went with it and I collapsed out of the bush and onto the footpath that was in front of me.
I lay there in a pile and just lifted my face from the ground and look at the two guys that had now stopped and were starring down at me… I giggled nervously… I was screwed…

“Hey….”
I lay there on the ground hoping they would just walk on and ignore me, but that was wishful thinking. Ben stood there and gave me the whole disappointed look. I let my head fall to the pavement hoping that they would be gone when I looked up again. But of course, they were still there…
I didn’t know what I was going to do, I think I could have just lay there and faded into the pavement but Ben wasn’t going to allow that..
He walked over and grabbed my arm and hailed me up, I could tell he was pissed at me because he nearly yanked my arm out of its socket.

I groaned at him and threw him a dirty look out of the corner of my eye. While rubbing the part of my arm, I asked ,

“What was that for?” (even though I clearly knew it was the dumbest question I could have asked.)"

“ARE YOU SERIOUS?” He screamed at me, I didn’t want to say anything back , I felt like I was five again, getting shouted at by my dad, so I just muffled something under my breath and looked down at the ground.

“HUH? Answer me!!!” he looked me right in the eyes for sure this time and I couldn’t lose his stare. It was like a knife that cut right through me.

“Yeah, am serious.” I replied with attitude in my voice, I was now acting like a preppy teenager, I blanked Ben’s friend standing behind him and looked him in the eyes as if I had done nothing wrong, I looked at my arm and back into his face, but said nothing.

“Liz…” he muttered under his breath, I could just make it out, but it didn’t seem the right time to stand and argue with him, so I stood there, while he looked down at me, not only because I had let down his trust but also because simply he was so much taller than me.
I was just about to argue and say no, it wasn’t Liz, but he would have known I was lying.
She has had me doing checks on him for months now, and to be honest, it wasn’t worth the bother.

He began to walk off, so I pulled on his arm, trying to stop him, but he just pulled his arm from my hand and walked on.

“She doesn’t mean it Ben, you know what she is like, she don’t trust no one!!” I shouted after him but he kept on walking. I stood there just in silence staring at Ben walking of into the shadows of the tree’s that were behind him.
That’s when I noticed that it was just me and him standing there. I looked at him and quickly looked away when he noticed, for the thousandths time that night my heart began pounding again… I didn’t know what I could say, it was already awkward and I had already made a total ass of myself. I couldn’t stand there all night in silence, I had to think of something to say to break the awfully long silence.

“So… Your good then?” I asked while stuttering. Inside I could have kicked my own ass, I knew Liz had always told me I would eventually meet these guys, but I had trained all my life to be the best, now I was meeting them.

“So you’re the newbie….. Aww Fuck!” he said looking at me as if I was a kid

“Hea he… that would be me…. he…” I shrugged my shoulder and gave him the kid act. I couldn’t exactly expect him to see me for what I was, all he had seen was a stupid teenager fucking up her duties once again….

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UK, Edinburgh, At Home

I always hate it when Liz was half way round the world training the other guys. I was always left on my own making a prat of myself. I mean I do that when she was around but at least she could easily clean up my mess after me, and after last night I really could have done with her around.

Ben had walked of to god knows where and left me to get to know the new guy on the block. Which I’m not exactly complaining about, but it was Liz that pissed him off, not me. But that was Ben for you, always in his own little world, pulling himself out of this reality into his own one. He was always so distant with me, but I guess that’s just the way the guy is.
Liz is always complaining at how he is always busy and he never seems to want to talk to her. If you ask me those to need to just get a room and get it over an done with, but the pair of them…
This is the part I would rather not do, but I had to, Liz was going to hate me more than she already did for failing again.
I stood up from my bed, where I had been lying all morning thinking about what had happened the night before, I walked over to the chest of drawers opposite my bed and picked up my cell phone, and called Liz.

“Hey sis, how’s it going out there?” I asked , there was so much noise going on the other end of the phone.

“Hey Lea, what’ up? Its all going good out here, but these guys are seriously not listening me, there so much like you” she answered me, giggling at what she had said, I totally didn’t need her laughing at me after failing my whole spy attempt last night.

“That’s good, am sure you can handle them, you got Abby there right?” I asked trying so hard not to get on the topic of last night.

“Well no, she is still a no show, I don’t know where she has got to, so am stuck with me, myself and I” Liz had sounded so depressed over the phone, but at that minute that was nothing new, she always sounded depressed, but she never told me why she was down.


“Am sure she will appear soon, she wouldn’t have stood you up with training, its like her most favourite thing in the world.” I answered, even though I knew something was up, Abby was always up for the whole training the greater good, and she was meant to helping Liz for the past two weeks but still hadn’t appeared.
“Yeah, well two weeks and counting, its beginning to be a pain. I don’t know if she is ok or not and I have no clue where to look for her” she said sounding a little more concerned as she finished her sentence, she always had to act like mum, and she was beginning to get really got with it.

“Ah don’t worry about it, she will get there. Anyways - ” I sighed and cut off the rest of my sentence .

“O yeah, how did it go last night, or did you do your usual, I couldn’t be bothered?” she said trying to do an impression of me, which sucked by the way.

“About that, umm, lets just say it didn’t go to plan..” I said trying to say it as nice as I could to keep her calm.

“What you mean, not to plan? There wasn’t a plan, you just had to go, see and come back... Right?”
I didn’t say anything, I knew it would just make her mad.

“Right?” this time her voice was louder, and I knew I had to answer her. So stood there in the middle of my room, explaining to her everything that happened, I could have swore she was going to pass out on the other end of the phone with how angry she was at me.

“Ok, Its not like I meant to embarrass my self in front of the guys..” I answered. I now had attitude in my voice, which she hated and just made her more pissed at me. She was like the second mum I didn’t need.

“Leana, how could you be such a cluts, I asked you to go there and come back, what is so hard about that?”

“Don’t shout at me, if you are so bothered you should have done it yourself..” I said and she didn’t answer me for a while.

“Ok, I’m sorry I don’t mean to be a total biatch, but just so much crap going on. At least there’s no secrets now, even though Ben is going to hate me”

“Nah, he will cool off, he will just be peeved at you for a while. I’m sorry I failed again. I did tell you am no good at the spy shit, you should totally stop ask me to do these things.” I said, now with the sisterly advice.

“Yeah I guess so, but I didn’t really want him to hate me, over me being nosey, and not trusting him. But really he was hiding stuff from me.” she said, shifting the blame on to Ben, just like I had the night before.

“Liz, it not like you to are married, he wasn’t keeping anything from you, he just didn’t tell you absolutely everything that going on in his life.” I said trying not to laugh at her.

“Yeah ok… don’t get smart, so you seen the great Hannibal King then? ” she said sort of snappy but in a cocky way back.

“Ooo yeah, real funny. I still cant believe that I done that, the one guy I have ALWAYS wanted to meet and I fall at his feet - literally. It so wasn’t funny, not even a bit” I said with complete embarrassment in voice, I could see me doing it again in my head, and each time it was worse.

“HAHA, you ass, it was actually so much funnier than I thought, I can see it now, o my go…. Crash you hit the floor… aw shit, I’m so starting to wish I was there.” she said being a real bitch.

“Ben still isn’t talking to you” I replied, I didn’t realise how harsh it was until I had said it. Liz loved this guy, I could tell, but never had the guts to come out and tell him, and I kind of got the feeling Ben felt the same way too.

“Well I’m going to have to go, got work to do and these guys aren’t all that patient, and Lea you need to go fix your mess”

“Aw do I really have to, can I not just leave them to get on with it, you know I hate the fixing part, another thing am useless at” I replied hoping she was going to say fine I will fix it, but that wasn’t exactly going to happen.

“Bye sis, have fun” she said while laughing and hung up. I hated when she done that, and she always picked her moment on doing them aswel. So once again I was left on my own to deal with all this shit that I had no way of fixing or, at least, no way of starting to fix. Ben, King and the big bad world….

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Leana’s Bedroom

All day I had been stuck in my room, and after the phone call with Liz I knew I had to do something to fix this, and I had no clue how I was going to do it. As I had said Liz had always been the person to solve my mistakes. To be honest this time it was her fault, and yeah if I wasn’t such a moron and tripped up. It would have still been quite with the me stalking Ben thing, but he was going to end up finding out some time. He always did eventually find out anything me and Liz were trying to hide from him.

Finally the sun had began to set and I could get out and actually do something that I was good at.

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Edinburgh, The Dip

Walking, walking and more walking that’s all I had done the whole night and nothing had decided to pop out and get its ass kicked, didn’t blame it, but something had to be stupid enough to try me. There is always was one.
Although it had been to quiet for a while and that always meant trouble was stirring.

I heard the grass behind be crunch, but I didn’t stop. I just kept moving forward as if I had not heard nothing. Then once again I heard it… This time I turned very sharply and swing my leg round and collided with the persons head, behind me, I bent over and swung my other leg under its feet and they hit the ground in a thump. I stood there waiting for them to say or do anything… but it just lay there holding its head..
I bent over and grabbed its arms and hauled it up.

“What the…” I said looking at the girl I had in my head, she was normal, human, and I think I just about killed her.

“Who are you?!” I asked straightening her up, but she just held her head and groaned.

“HUH? Answer me!!!” I yelled this time, I was angry at her, even though I was the one that attacked her.

“K…Kathryn” she said in a daze.

“What are you doing out at this time, skulking around.. You could get yourself killed” I said, more clam

“Yeah….apparently…. So you would be Leana…. So I got the right gal” She said, as if she knew me and what I was doing.

“Yeah… what’s that to you?” I asked completely confused as what had just happened.

“Well… long story short… Kathryn night stalker newbie.. A complete pleasure to meet you to” she said, with complete sarcasm in her voice, I felt like hitting her again, just to show her who she was talking to, but am guessing she knew who I was already.

“What are you following me for?” I just kept firing the questions

“I’m not following you… I was coming to get you… The guys sent me to get you.” I looked at her, not buying her story and also getting really pissed at her attitude… she had a major problem.
“The guys…. Meaning?” I was sure she meant Ben and King but I wanted to ask anyways.
“King and Ben…duh.. Who you think I was meaning” Once again with the attitude, I was so close to hitting her.

“…and what makes them think am going to go with a rookie… and were is it we are going?” I asked now with attitude. I got so annoyed I grabbed her arm and twisted her round back the way she came from.

“Move!”

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Edinburgh, The Base

I had, had a nice little journey on the back of Kathryn’s motorbike, and now was outside this building that looked like a brunt out barn. I turned round to see were she had walked of to but she at parked the bike up inside a shed look a like building at one side of building,

“You got to be kidding me…” I whispered to myself and rolled my eyes.

“Just come on” she said to me walking on in front of me.

I followed her on in. The inside wasn’t up to much either, but it held up a little better than the outside, Kathryn disappeared into a room to the left of me and left me standing in what I think was the main hall of the building. I stood there just looking around.
Kathryn appeared again I stared at me…

“You going to stand there all night?” she said

“Come on” she walked of in front of me again, once again I followed behind her, I was amazed that I had finally got to see what goes on inside the night stalkers operations. I stopped out side a room and couldn’t move. It was full of weapons, huge, small and just plain weird ones, it was like Leana heaven, kick ass junk and weaponry were totally my deal.

“Gees will you move your ass….” Kathryn shouted at me. I turned and threw her a evil look, but didn’t reply I just walked on to catch up. I passed another room that just looked like a mini combat room, it has everything in it for hand on hand combat and just plain ass kicking combat.
For some reason I just couldn’t make words come out my mouth I was just silent, and then King walked out of the room in front of me, which just made it worse. I felt my whole body freeze up inside. For some reason this guy just effected me, and I had no clue why or if it was a good or bad thing.

“Hey, glad you could show your pretty little face.” He said and smiled at me. I couldn’t control my self I just burst out into a stupid girly giggle, I felt like a major twat, I turned to see Kathryn just looking at me and a sigh appeared from her mouth.

“See you coach, she is all yours… Good luck” I could just make out that she said good luck under her breath. For some reason this girl either didn’t like me, or was just a bitch to everyone she had ever met. She just walked of back into the room she had disappeared from a few minutes ago.


“Tour of this shit hole.. Well I see you noticed the weapons room and the combat facility.. Got to say my favourite room… “ I just kind of tuned out of what he was saying and stared at him.. I was acting as if I was a teenager having my first crush. But I couldn’t stop myself. I just watched him.

“Finally this would be the glue that keeps this accident together..Doc” he said introducing me to a small man with a lab jacket on, and tiny bottle end glasses, or lets just say the typical stereotype scientist geek.
“Ooo Hey….?” I said snapping out of my day dream and shook the mans hand, but I couldn’t recall the guys name.

“Doc.. Call me Doc..” he said looking at King as if to say, where you pull this one from.

“Am so sorry, Nice to meet you Doc” I repeated. He smiled at me and turned round and continued on what he must have been working on.. A small metal test tube looking thing, but he moved into a funny little silver box before I could get a good enough look to actually see what it was…

“So there your little view of you dark and deadly secrets, now I will have to kill you” he said, but he look so serious saying it that I actually stepped back from a second. Then he smiled at me, and I couldn’t hold back my smile back at him.

All this time I had totally forgot the ass I had made of myself last night, but it all came rushing back when Ben walked through the door behind me. He looked straight at me and then turned and walked into the room Kathryn had walked in.. I’m sure King told me it was the dorms, that’s only if I remember correctly…

I still hadn’t gotten round to apologising to Ben, but I didn’t see it doing any good, but I knew I had to. I had left King in the lab with Doc and walked through to where I had seen Ben disappeared into.

“Hey Ben.. You in here?” I half shouted through the door, I got no answer. I realised there was a room of the top of the dorms. So I walked up and knocked on the door.

“Hello Ben? You in here?” I still got no answered but I opened the door anyways. And there he was sitting on a chair in the dark.. Doing nothing.

“Can I come in?” I asked while walking in anyway. He still didn’t say anything, but I couldn’t tell it was because he was pissed off at me or he was just being Ben. He stood up and walked over to his bed and sat down on that. I didn’t see the point in him moving but I didn’t say anything.

“Can I talk to you? Please…. Ok listen to me, Liz didn’t mean anything by it, and you know she likes to check up on her guys, I mean come on it was me that mucked up, take it out on me but please don’t take it out on her….” He still didn’t answer me, but at least he looked me in the eye while I was talking.

“OK?… Look how much she checks up on me, I mean if I wasn’t spy girl, she would have someone spying on me…” I was so surprised that he actually cracked a smile. I figured that I had got through to him.

“Yeah..” he said, he stood up and walked to his door, he turned the door knob and looked back round at me and smiled, not saying anything else, and walked out of the room.

I was left in the room, with a feeling of pride, only a little deed but at least I had solved the problem with Liz and Ben, well I hoped I had, I also solved the tiny awkwardness between me and king by actually communicating with him and not acting like a complete twat.

Yeah I acted like a teenager round him, but at least I was a talking teenager, huge improvement if you ask me.

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Leana’s House

I had come home so happy and hyper and I didn’t exactly know why, but I couldn’t stop myself from going through the house jumping around and singing into the end of any object I put my hands on. It was only around 12:30pm, so I wasn’t tired or even thinking of going to bed.

I walked through into the kitchen, and opened the fridge door, I didn’t really take a look what was inside I just pulled a bottle of water from the inside of the door, closed it and walked off, into the living room.
I sat down on the couch and looked around the room, not really paying any attention to anything. My mind was still wandering around the base. Thinking about everything I had seen. I couldn’t wait to go back up and get to try out the gym and weapons room.
Even though I was so happy and excited that I had seen what I had, but there was still this great sense of doubt in my mind, that I couldn’t shift. I rolled my eyes and un screwed the bottle of water in my hand.
I took a sip of water, and stood up, across the room was a wall sized mirror that I could see myself in, I took one look at my self and sighed…

“Failure…”

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Edinburgh, The Base

I had made my way back up to the base the next day, hoping to get some ass kicking time in. When I got there, I was amazed its was a Saturday morning and I had just walked into a room full of teenagers studying and working out at 8am. Not exactly something you are blessed with seeing all to often.
The kids had been split into 3 groups, one group was with King in the gym, another group was in the dorms listening to something Ben was talking about and the other group was in the lab with Doc getting up to something scientific, that I totally wasn’t interested in.

I walked into the dorm and waved at Ben who was at the far side. He looked up and nodded at me, that was his way of a casual wave. I noticed Kathryn and her friend Oliver who I had met last night, were sitting in on Ben story telling along with another girl. I walked out and left Ben to do his thing.
I walked straight passed the lab, I didn’t really want to fill my head with mumbo jumbo science talk, and on into the gym.
King was showing one of the older groupies some move that he could use on a punch bag, while the others just looked as if they were trying to be busy doing something. I walked up to King.

“You know if you done it like this, it would stop any pressure to the back of the wrist” I said while taping him on the shoulder, I took the young mans hand and cupped it in mine and helped his hand into a more combat ready stance.

“You know fuck face here is meant to know that…” he said while looking round the kid

“Come on K -Man…” the kid said looking at King as if he really didn’t want to be bothered with a lecture.

“Push off, try working with this..” King handed him a small stake that had a funny shape tip to it, I jus looked at it and looked at King, completely puzzled.
“Garlic projectile… extra kick to the balls to finish the cunts off, you could say” he said answering the question I had answered in my head. I just looked at him and nodded

“Very spiffy” I said with my hands in my pocket while I sort of rocking back and forth. My phone began to ring in my back pocket.

“One minute” I said to him while answering the phone.

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“Eeellloo”

“Hey, you sorted your little problem out yet?” Liz said on the other end of the phone, not even caring to ask how I was or how the guys were. Only Liz was always the down to business sister.

“Yeah. Worry wart, I sorted it. What’s up?” I asked trying not to laugh at a girl who had just fallen on her ass trying to do a back kick.

“Abby still a no show, and I’m not waiting around any more for her and longer.” this time when she talked about Abby she didn’t seem as concerned as she did the first time.

“So, where you at?” I asked

“On my way home…” I nearly dropped the phone, I wasn’t expecting her home for a few months, and plus she always got the job done before coming home.

“What!! Are you feeling ok?” I asked

“Am coming home, and yes I feel fine, am just not waiting around for nothing to happen. There has been no action around here, and without Abbie am a sitting duck. The team I have here are heading home with me. Ask king if he go the room for about another 5.” I turned and look at King, who had already heard the questions. For once he had nothing to say he just nodded.

“Yup they can stay here, when you planning on getting home?”

“Next few days hopefully Monday, depending on flights” she answered me, sounding some what excited down the phone.

“Well I will see you on Monday , love you” I hung up the phone and turned to help King out with the training, and looking around he was going to need it, these guys were totally not ready for the big bad evil going around them. They were to sloppy and clearly not able to hold there own just yet.

Time had passed and me and king were left to clean up after them, the girls had been doing sit ups and left the mats out and the guys had left out the weights, just knowing that someone would pick them up after them. Ben was taking them out for some later on, and they were now doing one of the things teenagers do best… eat.

I was just about to roll the final mat up, when King walked behind me and scoop my legs from under me and I crashed to the floor.

“Keep up” he said, putting his hand down to help me up, u took his hand, while he was pulling me up I grabbed his for arm and lifted my right leg to his stomach and flipped him over my head. I jumped up quickly and turned and look down at him.

“Keep up King.” I said while giggling. This time I offered my hand to him, he looked at me ad if to say yeah right, but I shrugged just to let him know I wasn’t going to try a smart move. He grabbed my hand and I helped him up.
He walked over to the wall were there was combat sticks. He took two from there stand and threw one over to me, I caught it and spun it in my right hand, I slowly walked close to him and stood real still, waiting for him to make his first move.

He took one step forward and brought he stick straight to my torso, I side stepped his attack and swung the stick to hit him in the side, he protected himself with the end of his stick, moving mine away. I swung my stick behind me and brought it round to hit him in the right side, this time catching him in the top of the leg. His leg collapsed from under him and he staggered to his right. I took the advantage and cracked the stick over my leg, motioned a stake to were King heart would be, he dropped his stick and put his hand in the air to surrender.
He laughed

“Your not to shabby” He said while bending down to rub his leg,

“Are you ok?” I asked, he seemed as if he was in a lot of pain, and I felt so guilty

“Nah fuck, I will hold up, although I thought you would have more in you than that” he said looking back up at me. I didn’t want to bruise his ego so I just laughed and shrugged.

“Sorry to disappoint..” I said just with a stupid little girl giggle again, I thought I would have gotten past that stage. He started to walk off out into the main hall, and this time he let out the giggle.

“Not a disappointment…”

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