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[Alley]

She knew the black beast was upset with her. She went to the border of another's lands in search for Makea. Though she wondered if he knew the details of why or who she was after, however, to her protective alpha, he probably did not care. All these things went through her mind, so much was going on between them lately it was a mess of emotions. When she first came to things lands, they barely spoke and now it seemed he was more involved in her life than any other. She was caring his pups, he had her half-dead father for the gods know why, and she knew there was a punishment coming, just did not know when. Hopefully, it would not be too harsh. Her ears went back. Did he know she had his pups?

The very elusive female knew how to hide in these lands, so she avoided any strong scent of his, only being near Philo and whomever else she crossed, like willow. So there were two beings who for sure knew she was carrying. It left a bad taste in her mouth to think she was pregnant and not even 'mated' or officially considered his 'One' if you know what I mean. Let alone she never pictured herself a mother. Yes, she raised Philo, but--A heavy sigh came from her as she boldly approached his home. She had been here but once, and now the smell of other females laced the area. Oh it made her bristle and her lips curl back. It was very insulting, she did not need to enter to know what went on here.

Her ice blue eyes went cold as she felt the need to roll about to erase there scent and fixate hers here, but she ignored that strong instinct. Now that her hormones were out of place her dominant personality showed stronger than ever, it was like nails to a chalk board trying to ignore these strong instincts. There were two voices in her head, one being Philo's and the other that wretched Makea's. They all pointed to the alphess or queen, as they put it, position. She wanted it, she would not lie...but she would not demand it, or ask for it---this was out of fear, fear he would say no. If he did, it would tear her heart out. She would love to be at his side, she would kill to be at his side, but she wanted him to want her.

Her ears folded back, as cold emotions were replaced by longing, longing to be Odiado's second in command, to be his top female. It would appear she was, but Kira. Oh how she bristled. Shaking her head she let that go, she was here to talk to Odiado, and if he saw fit, to punish her. Her winter coat came early, and in her four-legged form it hid her pregnancy very well in fact..but it was beginning to borderline show. The way she walked, the way she ran, and how fast her energy was depleted. To help conceal herself better she sat upon her haunches, it would make for an illusion that she was fattening up for the winter months. Once positioned and with the gnawing urge to mark his place with her scent in the far back of her mind, she was ready to see him. She let out a soft howl letting him know she was here--if he did not know already.

[Odiado]

The song of his mistress was soon filling his home and the beast knew that he had to wake up now. Lazily he scratched his ear, stretched, then rose so he could trot over to the animal skin doorway and push open the curtain. His huntress was so fair in the morning light but he only yawned and motioned her to come inside. "Yes, Alley? Come in." The harsh light of the day was making his head hurt but it only showed in the way that he scrunched his eyes to move his thick fur to blot it out. Though he had a feeling he knew what this was all about. She had been avoiding him since that night, and he had not gone out of his way to find her. If she wanted her space, she could have it. Despite the lingering smells he had not had another female enter his home for some time now, and even then it was as innocent as being a teacher for Willow and nothing more. Though he couldn't also say he had been entirely faithful- he just kept them out of his house and cleaned up afterwards.

[Alley]

Her eyes look up simultaneous with her ears perking, as the fur moved to reveal a male that had her heart. Those eyes, the dangerous confidence that captured her looked into hers through squinted eyes. She stood, and the moment she stood she folded her ears back. She knew that pot belly would be revealed. It almost made her feel ashamed, it was a sign that the virgin was no longer a virgin. This was because she felt like her innocents was taken, but she was still the same person, she felt the same. She still loved everything she liked before, like the black birds that plagued this area. Sharing her leftovers with them, and helping those that got injured by the others. She was still innocent even though she was no longer a virgin.

After standing there for a long while she went forward going into his home. It was her first time in here, and it was not as she expected. The scent of Makea was stale in the air, and it seemed anothers scent. Either way, she had to keep her mind on what she came here for. Being in here made her feel uncomfortable, and it showed, her muscles were tense. Maybe it was because she had to tell him, and she was afraid to ask for a higher rank. But...if she did not get it already must have meant she had not deserved the rank, though, neither did anyone else. Her competition dwindled though, Angel was gone, Makea was gone. Now left Kira.

Licking her lips she looked up with her ice blues, the window to her soul. "Odiado...I-I have missed you.." It was all she could manage, she did not want to feel like all she was here for was to tell him she was carrying their offspring, because really she was not she wanted to know if she deserved to be second in command, if she deserved to be his mate. They had made love, didn't they...did it mean as much to him as it did to her. She loved Odiado, loved him more than any of the females in this world...she loved him for the right reasons, not the wrong. She was not one for bullshit, so here she went, "I am not going to lie to you..." She took in a breath, she raised her head. The female was not going to be meek, she was not raised to be meek. Lifting her head she showed her confidence in the face of situation that made her uncomfortable, "...I am carrying..."

Her eyes looked into his, she wanted to know how he felt about this, she knew she did not need to say his, he knew very well who's they belonged to. "...I wanted to know...where do I fit?" Hopefully, he knew the underlying to that. She wanted to know, she gave him time to think about their night. It surely gave her time, and she knew where she wanted to be. Being pregnant had not influenced her decision any, other than making her more hard pressed to get the answers. Would she be his top female, or would she stay as a she is. Drawing in a breath her tail rose some and she looked defiant, almost, as her eyes looked deep into his.

[Odiado]

As she entered he fell back to his bed sheets, and curled up while waiting for her to speak. Yawning lightly, he waited. His attention fully on the woman who seemed to be battling with internal struggles. Yet at the first mention he had to stifle a almost bitter grunt. Missed him? She had been fleeing him! Not on their roof top, not near their normal haunts. True he could have found her if he looked hard, but would she not have ran? But he calmed that little irritating voice that made him get so possessive, he would hear her out. Then she dropped the bomb. Pups. On the way. Though the only reaction to come this time was a sigh. Rising out of his comfy bedding he strode over to the woman the was vessel to a new generation. If only his ladies fully understood their own value. But that was another issue for another time. Hesitantly he let a paw reach out to feel that womb. If only to brush past that warm pelt and touch the life within. He wasn't sure if she would let him, after all- he did steal something very precious from her that night... His head dropped, cupping his skull with he free paw he looked like some sort of head ache was coming on. "There is still time... I know what roots you can consume to abort them. I knew the risks... I should have never touched you." His voice was low and serious, his eyes closed in deep thought knowing that they might and probably would sting. Nothing good would be born from his genetics. But she continued, and he sat in silence for a long time after she finished. Looking at his paws again the beast lord suddenly felt like it would have been better to stay in bed for the rest of his life. "Damnit Alley... I told you I don't have an answer for what you are really asking! And I might never have one!" The voice was strained. Rising he paced slowly across the room. "Its deeper then rank, I know that. If you wasn't to be my second? Then fine, I name you my second." He turned and looked at her hard. "But it is only a title, a few more privileges then you already have and sharing my burdens. I will not promise that things will change much." It hurt. Somewhere it hurt inside. Though it the truth often did that. "I am flawed far beyond your understanding. It may suit you best to just leave things as they are." Why did this hurt? Those two colored eyes grew cold, locking away whatever it was that was bringing the pain and to shove it out of site and out of mind. Now he just sat with a stone like face waiting for retaliation, expression, sadness, hate. Any hint on what was going on inside her head was better then looking into his own.

[Alley]

She saw the look, she knew he did not believe her, though she knew the truth. She did miss him for that time she avoided him. In truth it actually killed her to stay away from him, but she needed that time, and surely so did he. If he did not, why didn't he come find her? She snorted in response to his look. She kept her head up as he approached and she watched him, watched him go to touch. The brief contact made her smile, and she leaned into it. She longed for his touch-any touch from him. Her eyes closed, then shot open with his words making her ears past back. Abort!? Why would she-"Why would I deny their life, I am not ashamed of what we have done...is that how you feel? Is that what you want? To kill your own children?' Tears almost swelled in her eyes as she tore away from his touch. She loved puppies, and to know that these came from love, at least her love. She was unsure how he felt especially after that. Her eyes looked at him in shock and disbelief. She wanted to cry and the tears almost came, the stress of this was beginning to show. She watched as he held his head for a moment. Then he went on to what he had to say, she did not take much offense to what he said, but to think it was a simple title she was after. The title meant nothing, it was just the acknowledgment of being his, and him hers.

" Yeah, you know damn well it is not the title, it goes deeper than that!" All this yelling was stirring the pups within her and sooner or later it was going to come. "Your flaws are what make you special, and I like that. I don't care how damn flawed you are! I want to you to share your burdens with me, I don't care how bad they are. You act like I did not get a taste of that! Who gave you that form you have right now!? I am still here aren't I? I am still at your side!" A mix of angry and sad tears began to form and just as she began to get more furious, a pain came to her stomach, and she almost fell as she winced. With her head down she whispers through the pain, her legs buckled. "...all I ask is to be the one always at your side..when you feel lonely, I want to be the one you call...when you need to confide in someone I am there...all I want is to be with you. You don't think I missed you but it killed me to stay away. It kills me to open up...but I am doing it." She looks up waiting for his answer. Another harsh kick and she whimpered under her breath as she slowly laid down on the floor, her muscles tense. Her ears pressed hard against her skull. She wanted to be comforted, to know that he wanted these pups, to know he wanted her. But now, it was not just her she needed to worry about, it was these babies, and philo as well.

[Odiado]

Shamed he turned his gaze away. How could he bear to look at something so pure knowing he had slowly been tainting it as it lingered in his clutches under the pretence of being protected. "Yes. I would kill my own children. And I have." His voice was soft, humbled. "The things that are wrong with me could poison them." He dared to look her in those diamond like eyes, the sadness cutting him up inside when he should have felt nothing. Then she fell, her voice growing quieter with each passing breath. Odiado couldn't hesitate. He rushed over to her side, cupping that soft tear stained face in his bloodied claws. He stroked her face, leaning in close to embrace her as close as he could while being in his wolfish form. "Please... just hush. Calm yourself. Your right." He kissed the top of her head, not entirely sure why he felt he needed to preform such acts. "I've forgotten that I am not the only one who will create those children into their future selves. With you as their mother things will turn out for the better." He squeezed her closer to his heartbeat, its infernal racing part from worry and part from things he couldn't' understand. "I'm just a great fool Alley... I ask your forgiveness now knowing I don't deserve it." He couldn't give her his heart when it was not there, but he would cherish her as much as he was able until that point she breathed life back into his walking corpse. "And I know I will always be such... but for now- please continue to walk by my side." Shivering he clutched her, that familiar scent always so sweet filling his head when the world around them only stank of blood and hardships.

[Alley]

Those words, those heartless words! It cut through her like a knife. The pain that was in her eyes when he so boldly looked into them was worst then when he bit her. As she had gone to snarl was when the pain of those pups took over and he came so quickly to her side. Her eyes softly looked into his, raw emotion was all she shared, she let him see into her guarded self. This was were she would find out, would he deny her? She did as he wanted, she quieted her tender heart in his palms, her tender heart given to him. She closed her eyes and took in his kiss, it was so loving, he was once more so tender with her--was this his love for her? His words meant the world to her, what he said next made her eyes open and look at him with a tender smile. She huddled into him as he brought her closer, her ear to his chest. The frantic pace that seemed to match her own. It felt like their hearts were one, two beings that were never meant to be, but were. They made up ying and yang. She laughs lightly at his words, finding them silly...but he was--he was a great fool. Her head tilted upward to look at his eyes, both the hell eye and the heaven's eye. "I don't care how great a fool you are, my feelings for you have not changed. You make me furious--more furious than anyone could, but I love you. I will always be here, and I will forgive you." She presses up to him to emphasize how true her words were.

She felt him shiver, and she was not sure why but her mind wheeled to figure it out. Soon she realized she herself was shaking. She stayed in this embrace, "I never want to leave your side....please don't ever make me.." Her ears pasted back. Her cold eyes soft and honest as they looked to the ground just enjoying this touch, this moment. Every detail was being etched into her mind, the scent of his place, the strong musk he had. It was the scent that made her feel safe and secure, even though her insecurities tried to tell her otherwise. However, the actions he did showed her otherwise, he was always there for her and she wanted to do the same for him.