Guess I will post this here.., Seems like the right place to do so?

This is FF6andLufiaCrazed again... With a few things to say...

Ok. After the last topic that was made. I do realize what a few of you mean.

As for going back on XFire after the banning. I was banned from the chat already which ended up preventing me from doing so.

Now for my compaints about my increase of warnings. I remember a couple being over the same thing. The "stalking" if I remember correctly. Which I do admit I did mostly out of fun and meant nothing by it.

The other stuff was necroposting. Which I already explained before. That I had school and such and a lot to do where I could hardly visit and post in time. Then when I was finally able to get on. Nothing was going on. So I thought maybe "reviving" some older topics could cause a bit of fuel into the board. But that plan exploded on me...

Now you all may ask why the hell I am even bothering with this? Well for one. I've played RPGM2KBRPG! recently and it got me thinking. How I was the main cause of things that happened. I just reacted the way I did thinking I could prove I could be worse when I was intending on trying to make a point I was trying to do nothing against any of you or the board. I see now that, that also didn't work as planned.

I know you all will probably not accept me still, even though I think I am on neutral terms with a few members and I think I could make up for things I caused those that hate me to hate me. At least think about it or allow me to talk with you somehow to see how things have changed. It's been some time and I think we can clear things up. Especially since things are going much better for me now than back then and I've came to my senses about things.

I have even remixed a couple of midis from RPGM2KBRPG!... Namely some DarkX stuff since I felt like it. I don't know how you all are going to react to me linking these probably. Probably won't care because it is ME that is linking them... Like I said though. This is just something I wanted to share. Do what you want with it...

Mid: http://www.blade2k.net/FFThunder/Midis/DarKX_Boss_SM.mid
Zip: http://www.blade2k.net/FFThunder/Midis/DarKX_Boss_SM.zip
Mid: http://www.blade2k.net/FFThunder/Midis/Dar...haracter_SM.mid
Zip: http://www.blade2k.net/FFThunder/Midis/Dar...haracter_SM.zip
(I figured this made them sound more hackerish, if MP3 format is preferred I can easily convert, but I figured midis will do better in this case)

Now. Unlike last time... At least give me a chance to respond or try to contact me before you just ban me and bash this topic. I have realized that most has been my fault... If not all... and I would like to try and make up for it.

Welcome back buddy. Too bad this board died when RPGM2BRPG died.

Thanks. Yeah... I did notice I came back at a dead moment... Kinda sad really.

Also. Did you check out the midis?

This post has been edited by Dezarc on Sep 10 2009, 06:01 AM

no i haven't looked at the midis, but i expect you will not be getting much mileage out of this forum

??? *Is confused*

I thought you were The Chrono Master. Renamed that is...

But you are seeming to reply for Mukmaster... Or are you a Master of all Master's?

Hey. I posted here before but REDDAP deleted it using the following reasoning:

" I had to delete your post in his topic: I maybe should have sent out PMs, but since you're kind of out of the loop with not being on xfire and everything, basically, we've decided we're completely ignoring his post, so we don't even want posts telling him the truth. Basically we need to give him the impression that A) the place is completely dead, even moreso than telling him he's dead, and B) no one gives a flying !@#$ about him, since we've come to a conclusion that he probably just wants the attention. Sorry about not letting you know earlier. "

...Of course, I shouldn't have to point out how completely pointless and immature that idea was, but anyway, he sent me another message saying he's given up on that plan, so there you go.

Hmm maybe he realized finally of what I am trying to do here. I am not joking or anything.

But thanks for that information. Although it seemed "dead" while just browsing before I signed up. So his planned did fail for the most part.

As for his other plan. I am not expecting anything huge. Since I've done a lot here in the past and caused a lot of pain... and such it seems. Actually. I was just expecting to be banned or something right away. But I guess they didn't want to trigger me spamming and such... or see if he could get his plan to work.

Either way. It is rather upsetting though seeing him think that way. I know I've caused him a lot over my past events that led up to this. If he'd only remember how things were before all of that and forget about it. I am willing to do so... and would just like to be able to help out and participate in things like before.

If people see this as weak and lame of me like I am holding on to the past... that may be true. But it's something about me. I hate to have issues with others. Especially if I could resolve them in someway. Guess I am a bit of a pacifist or something. I mean most of my enemies I've made before are all on contact levels with me if not more so. I would just like this resolved. It seems lame to continue acting the way things have been playing out. It also has something to do with the last topic I came up with. But maybe I can get you all to see my view and the reasoning this time.

Also. I hope I am not giving the impression that I am trying to be having a bigger ego or trying to make it look like it's your fault more than mine. I am accepting what I have done... and like I said. Not trying to act like I have a big ego here. If anything the opposite.

Then again. If no one "cares" about me. That's ok. I understand why. It doesn't matter if they do or don't. I am just trying to resolve this "hate" which is still "caring" between me and other users here.

Well that's probably all I could "say" for now.

Alright Crazed, since you seem to be in a better place than you were in the past (to what degree I can't decide) I'll go ahead and post a few thoughts. This is just me speaking for me so I don't know what anyone else is thinking or what, and I'm going to attempt to not be a drama machine in the process.

In short Crazed, my reason for not posting or banning is because I don't care anymore. When I saw you back again I didn't want to go through all the stupid drama and bullcrap associated with making sure there's peace around here, especially since the place is dead. If it makes you feel any better this sentiment applies to all the people who's given me crap in the past; it's just that you're the one who did so to the greatest degree. Granted I was asking for it after admining/moderating at least three sites at one time, but really Crazed, there is so much time of my life that I've given up to make sure you're not doing some stupid crap around here or trying to prove some immature point. For example, I'm sure you remember that 30 minute chat I had with you about not attacking the forums, where I tried to be nice and understanding to you regardless of all the crap, which resulted in you attacking anyway after a while. Really, I've had to do so much just because of you, and that's time I could have spent enjoying myself in some way. Yes, it needs to be said, that's time that I'm never going to get back.

So yeah, I know you say "I would just like this resolved," but it's totally different on this side. This time, I'm sorry isn't going to cut it for me. Usually I'm willing to dish out forgiveness, but it's not like I'm going to be like "Oh sure, I'll go ahead and forget the constant bullcrap and trouble and everything's just peachy cream!" The fact that the last words you said to me were to the effect of "Go to hell you emo prick" doesn't put me in a better mind either. Now look, I sympathize, I'm not happy with who I was in the past either - this is particularly seen in how I've just about disowned anything I've made in RPG Maker. But like I said, I really don't care at this point Crazed. I have better things to be doing than appeasing your conscience or worrying about your feelings, because I just don't care. If REDDAP has a problem I'm usually willing to bend over backwards, but that's because he's a friend and I actually care about him. You, on the other hand, are outside of my realm of concern; once again, if it makes you feel any better, there are a LOT of people in that category. If you're genuine about making amends, that's nice and appreciated, but it's far from enough. Also, honestly, the remixed MIDIs don't help anything; as I said, I hate most of my game making crap and that's definitely not the road you want to go down for making any of us like you. That just feels like asskissing.

In conclusion, if you really want to impress me in any way, don't talk to me. Don't even give me a reason to talk to you. If you spam/attack the boards, I don't care, someone else can deal with it, because I'm sick of it. If you can get along with people here, be my guest, but my few posts here will likely not even acknowledge your presence. This is ultimately my personal prerogative for ignoring you, and I don't care if it's "immature and pointless." I guess your goal from the very beginning was to incessantly try and try again to be able to post here again, so congratulations, you succeeded. Fact of the matter is, I don't like you for what you've done and I don't have any reason to change my mind about that, and that's just the way it's going to be. If you don't like it, I suggest not trying to push the subject via diplomacy or vigilance. If I'm ever ready to talk, I'll let you know, but for the current time this will be the only time I ever address anything to you and that's how it will stay.

Well, since the cat's out of the bag anyway, I'll add my two cents: Frankly, I don't give a !@#$ about what goes on here anymore.

Ignoring you hasn't seemed to make you go away so I'll be honest; I simply do not like you. At all. And it's gonna take a lot to change that, more then you can really do by say coming here and blaming us for your problems. Of course, you seem to have realized that that didn't work, as you seem more mature now at least. Your problem in my case is simply that I hold chips on my shoulder for a looong time and am a very firm believer that leopards, in fact, do not change their spots. I'll go ahead and not bother banning you because, again, I don't care at all, but don't expect me to want to talk to you or forgive you or anything because it's not happening. I'll admit my Orwellian editing of the stuff that went on here was quite douchey, but I realized that it's not the right thing to do so yeah, to TCM and SC I do deeply apologize for sinking down to that level.

Again, at this point I really couldn't care less. I'll accept you but don't expect me to forgive you or like you. The "good times" you talked about... I'll summarize it: I grew up. I don't find any of that stuff funny anymore, but I guess you do but that's your thing. I'm still extremely baffled about why you keep coming back here considering that the majority hates you, or at least hated (which has now moved on to apathy) so maybe I can get some answers there, more out of morbid curiosity then anything. I mean, when you get right down to it, you're just some guy over the internet to me and I really shouldn't be anything more than some guy over the internet to you. Though this isn't true for many of the other members here, that's because I've actually stayed in contact and... well, you know, don't hate them. It just seems odd that our approval means so much to you, but eh, whatever. I can basically say the exact same thing Rodpop just said, so yeah go by that if you will.

Tl;dr-I don't care.

Also, it's kind of ironic that my attempts to stop the drama could have potentially led to worse drama.

I must say that I would object to Rodpop calling his games "game making crap", though. I personally still occasionally replay RPGM2KBRPG, TCG and his chapter of TCGM2 to this day. But oh well, I know from experience that it's very easy to exaggerate the bad points of things you've made and ignore the good. I'd advise you to try and be a little more optimistic and proud of your work, honestly.

Well Rodpop. I understand your reasonings for what you posted. I know you tried before. But when you did. I didn't know if you were just stalling or what. It didn't seem like it was going anywhere... and as for the midi thing. The game inspired me to do it. The game is quite awesome IMO. I've always liked it... and yes even the Zelda part (once I've figured out a couple things and I still missed some things though). So the game you and REDDAP made is anything but lame. It has an interesting concept. It's better than some actual RPG's I've played. It would be nice though if more areas were added in though. Also I thought of even adding a FF6 area in and well you could probably guess the rest... The point of it is it's a good game. Just needs expanded.

and REDDAP I understand what you are saying. I appreciate you giving me a chance. I also understand about what you are saying about me getting approval. I guess you are right in a way. But in a way. It's mostly just ... well... getting over this hatred thing between me, you, Rodpop, and whoever else. As you said. It's not needed. Especially over the net. I don't want to be your best friend or anything on the next day. I am just trying to at least show that I can be like before any of this happened... if not better. So yes. I suppose from here. I will just post normally and not expect anything from either of you, and I will let you both decide when you are ready.

Well... Also... It mostly wasn't the fact that it was the parody itself. It was how well the users that participated got along. That mostly got me to come back here and try again. I know it's not going to be like before. That's how things are. But I would at least be able to keep in contact with some and try not to make myself be like I have been in between then and now.

To address SC, there are aspects of various things I've made that I'm proud of. Unfortunately, the main problem with my older stuff is the writing - it's atrocious for the most part. I was fine at making plotlines, but my dialog seriously sucked. TCG is the prime example of this, even though that's probably the game I like most out of all my stuff. There was no method to how I wrote and it shows again and again. Even my comedic stuff suffers from poor comedic timing and stupid wording, and that's if the joke itself isn't bad as it is.

Even from a gameplay perspective some of my stuff leaves a bit to be desired. I always was trying to get something done, so there was a lot that was rushed. Most of my dungeons relied around gimmicks, which wasn't too bad but gets cheap after a while. Point is, a lot felt disjointed, and my main goal was really to give players an excuse to get into battles. I'm not nearly as hateful about gameplay as I am story, but I have my misgivings. Oh yeah, and I hate the gameplay of my TCGM2 chapter. I was a crackhead to think that was good. Maybe if I got around to finishing Vitality you could see the direction I'd rather go in, even though that's far from what I'd hope for as my best work (it's also been crawling at a snail's pace for a test game so that doesn't help either).

Really, what I hate varies from game to game, so that's a general overview. I also feel this attitude benefits me in anything else I do, since I passionately don't want to repeat those mistakes and want to make myself better. So no, I don't go on like this because I want a pity party; it's more like some sort of artsy fartsy arrogance that's obligatory for college kids to get.

Also to clarify, I do not hate Crazed. I simply don't care.

I like your views about the games. But why not use that in order to motivate yourself to work on the games more? You have proof that people like the game this forum is based on. To not continue it would be reckless.

If you want to work on dungeon stuff or something. Do it as a side-quest thing. Similar to the Lufia games' "Ancient Cave".

I...would have to agree with the writing. IMHSR and The Goddess Blade quite frankly made me cringe occasionally. But I do think that your gameplay honestly surpassed commercial gaming a lot of the time.

I still love your TCG chapter - every dungeon is brilliant fun to go through. Your battles were always balanced near-perfectly as well, especially in RPGM2KBRPG.

Your TCGM2 chapter's gameplay was simple, yes, but that goes for every chapter really, and it was still fun to play. It would get repetitive if used for a full game, but it was perfect for a collection of small games like TCGM2.

Another game I forgot to mention was SARS - the battles were pretty badly balanced there, but the puzzles were seriously some of the best I've ever seen, on par with Zelda I'd say. That game was amazingly fun to play. I also thought the characters were really great and easy to get attached to.

I'm not saying your stuff was flawless, but you did certainly make a lot of great games, and I definitely wouldn't call anything you did 'crap.'

By the way, Crazed, it's not that Rodpop just doesn't work on RPGM2KBRPG any more, it has been officially canceled. As you can see with the Official Cancellation Topic over in that board. So it's basically not even a possibility that he'll continue to work on it for any reason. The summary of the rest of the plot was posted by RED anyway.

Well. I guess I could use the summary and continue it... I can do a few things. Not map design too well though... if at all.

I also thought it would be neat to allow you to find items hidden in things allowing the player to constantly have a reason to search towns. Yes again... Like Lufia.

The battles were scripted very well. Very challenging at times also. But it also made you have to grind a bit too much. Or you could easily be wiped out.