The Future

Yes, at times, I'm afraid of the future.

When I think of the future, I get filled with so many emotions: excitment, sadness, worry, nervous....I'm always so anxious to know what will happen. What friends I'm gonna keep, the ones I'm gonna lose...who will I meet, what will happen?

There are so many questions, and I always become overwhelmed. Then there are times, that I remember to take it one step at a time, that when the future comes, it will come.

One of the things I'm so very much afraid of, is being alone. Becoming out of touch of my best friends, not having somebody (boyfriend) be there for me, heck even losing touch with my own family. I really don't want this to ever happen.

One of the reasons I'm afraid of graduating. I have three-ish years until my own highschool graduation....and it makes me wonder, will I still be posting here on these forums, still friends with all of you? I really hope so, 'cause you guys are so great to know. Thats why whenever I hear the graduation song, it makes me wanna cry. (and I usually do)

Any thoughts on this?

Hmmmm......I think, if you just go along with the flow, do your best, and not get anxious or think about it too much, it isn't too bad. A while ago, where you are now was the future.

Trust. The more impulsive you are, heck, the more enjoyable life can be!

Every now and then I wish I could do that. I know how you feel AmayaSaria. I can get so worried about what is to come and I try my best to stifle those emotions so that know one knows what I'm thinking...but sometimes I just crack under pressure and worry/cry myself to sleep. I really have to take things bit by bit, but I always look at "the big picture" so I worry about what to do to make it a good future. *sigh* At least I know I'm not the only one.