I'd love to win the prize but I am not allowed 2 give out my address, I have one of the cards already anyway so that’s ok. If I were to win I’d be happy for the prize to go to whoever is second. Well here goes my 1st entry into a fanfic/songfic. Hope I’ve done it right. :) Richelle xoxo
(Fanfic challenge 6)
"Let's dance in style, let's dance for a while"
Those were the words of the song Jack and I had claimed as our song. Little did we know that one year on it would seem to be as though this song was predicting our lives together? Jack & I were 18 when we began dating and now at just 19 here we were approaching the next part of our song. A year ago we had dance din style however today could cause our lives, my life especially to take a completely different direction. It could change everything forever.
"Heaven can wait we're only watching the sky, hoping for the best but expecting the worst"
We sat in the waiting room of the doctor's surgery; I was about to find out if my life had changed forever, if the blood tests had come back positive or negative, if I Nina Tucker had cancer. The doctor called my name and Jack and I got up and walked into his room and sitting in the chairs across from the doctor.
"Are you gonna drop the bomb or not"
These lyrics continued through my head over and over, the bomb would be if the tests came back positive of me having cancer, was the doctor about to tell me this? I sat in silence as he began to speak.
"Let us die young or let us live forever"
Let us die young I thought, oh no please don't let that be me...
"We don’t have the power but we never say never"Never say never, that had always been a motto in my life, to hope the best would come but to never say no to something and in this case I wished I could go against my gut instincts and say everything would be fine but then the look on the doctor's face told me not to, as if he knew what i was thinking and his face was trying to tell me the worst was coming not the best and that I couldn’t simply say no and it be gone.
"Sitting in the sandpit, life is a short trip"
I was 19 years old and was just being told I had cancer which may not be able to be removed unless action was taken the next day, life sure is short and I was about to give up, I tried to stay strong but all that done was make me break down more. The lyrics still playing through my mind.
"Music's for the sad man, can you imagine when this race is run"
Sad I sure was, uncontrollably my emotions were just flowing out of me, I wasn't sure what Jack thought of this bomb that had just been dropped upon my life, as well as his. I couldn’t imagine how my life was going to be from this moment on all I could know for sure was that I would have Jack to support me and that me, Nina Tucker had cancer at just 19 years of age. I was told I would need to have chemotherapy after my surgery that was to be the next day; I was numb as I left the doctor’s surgery with Jack.
“Turn our golden faces into the sun”I walked out into the sun, my eyes still red from crying I held Jacks hand, for ages we said nothing but we didn’t have to we knew we would get through this, I knew I would, I skipped to the next part of the song…
“Forever young, i want to be forever young, do you really want to live forever…forever young, i want to be forever young…”Yes I did I wanted to be forever young, I wanted to be able to stay young and live my life not die from cancer and I wasn’t going to. However I knew the next few months would make me mature quickly from a 19-year-old teenager to a mature young adult fighting for her life and definitely never taking a single thing for granted.
“Some like water and some are like the heat, some are melodies, some are the beat”We arrived home and finally we spoke about everything and about the following days events. It would be the hardest part having never had surgery before and then the chemo it to would be hard too.
“Sooner or later they'll all be gone, why don't they stay out, it's hard to get on without a cause”
It would be gone, this line helped me settle my mind and know that the cancer would be cured and I would one day be free again to live my life how I had up until today.
“i don't want to perish like a fading voice, youth is like diamonds in the sun, Diamonds are forever”
Jack leaned in and kissed me as we finished talking about the following day and told em he loved me and then as though he knew what was going through my head about diamonds he sed he was going to wait but now seemed the best time to do it, at first I thought what but then he pulled a ring from his pocket, will you marry me he asked…
“So many adventures couldn't happen today, so many songs we forgot to play, so many dreams swinging out of the blue, left to come true”
I was in shock, I loved Jack and of course I said yes, my dreams were coming true even on the eve of one of the hardest days in my life excluding today before this point but it didn’t matter anymore I knew diamonds were forever and I had just accepted the diamond Jack had brought, brought for me and the diamond I would wear forever.
This post has been edited by I_luv_Jay on Jun 5 2006, 06:55 AM