Jeannette - September 29, 2008 06:44 AM (GMT)
Hey guys yes I came back and quite a different person than the beginning of summer...I apologise for my negative behavior.
Dennis passed away Aug.25th.
My older brother,me and my middle son (who was here for a surfing vacation) instead did his round the clock hospice care until he passed.It was awful and we are still reeling from the horrible experience.
Since then I have been doing the daily medical care that my other brother needs and it is exhausting and mind numbing from morning until night and I don't know if I can keep this level of care and companionship up while my own health is deteriorating?
I live alone now since the 1st of Sept. with just my 2 dogs and this past summer was one of the worst times in my life although also very enlightening and thought provoking to say the least...I am so lost.
Please pray for healing for my older brother and strength for my family
Thankyou so much~Jeannette Osborne
DF Mod Lady_Zandraa - September 29, 2008 06:53 AM (GMT)
I am so sorry to hear about your loss! You and your family will definitely be in my prayers. Try to take time to keep your strength up and to keep your health from slipping away.
I wish you strength, healing and peace.
DF Admin KJ - September 29, 2008 01:05 PM (GMT)
May the Lord be with you Jeannette, and you are in my thoughts and prayers. I pray for your complete healing, and the for His loving care in the situations involving your precious family. Please feel free to call me.
Robert B. - September 29, 2008 02:30 PM (GMT)
I am truly sorry for your loss...please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Auriel - September 29, 2008 04:27 PM (GMT)
Oh man, I have given care like that too, very draining in more ways than one, I feel so bad for you. I am so sorry for your loss.
I will pray too for healing, for everyone involved, and for peace to fill you.
forgottenspirit - September 29, 2008 05:44 PM (GMT)
DarkLucidity - September 29, 2008 06:46 PM (GMT)
I am sorry for your loss and the continued stress currently in your life. I pray the strength and piece of mind you need to get through this troubled time finds you soon.
Oh... and welcome back
SCLandes - September 29, 2008 10:48 PM (GMT)
Glad to see you back , albeit I wish your situation was better.
I'll be praying as well.
cornealius - October 4, 2008 03:40 AM (GMT)
My prayers go to you and your family
may g-d bless and watch over you during these trying times
Twinkle - October 4, 2008 04:06 AM (GMT)
My heart goes out to you, Jeannette.
My thoughts are with you and your family.
DF Mod LadyStarla - October 7, 2008 01:35 PM (GMT)
My heart goes out to you and your family. May you know you are not alone at this time.
isabel9710 - October 8, 2008 08:28 PM (GMT)
PRIAR Amie - October 12, 2008 09:03 PM (GMT)
Rob & I send our deepest sympathies... being a Hospice Nurse, I see first hand the exhaustion and pain of being a caregiver. Please take care of yourself both spiritually and physically as you find your way through such a difficult time in your life....
Please reach out to see if there are any respite centers or services that can offer you some assistance... you're in our prayers
Jeannette - October 16, 2008 08:56 PM (GMT)
Thankyou everyone for your support,prayers and I hope forgiveness...
I wanted to share the 2 photos I took of Dennis (with his permission and Rick's to post them here) that I took during his last day with us before he passed.
I brought my rosary to him when I went to help with his hospice care on Saturday afternoon and he clutched them tight and never let them go even after he passed on Monday morning and they are in the urn with him now forever.
Dennis and I talked for an hour about God and his fear of dying and what happens next and how to 'Let go' and worrying about those he will leave behind on the morning he passed and we cried and got mad and I held on to his hand tightly because I felt so inadequate because I could only speak of what I believe,of my faith without proof and that is all I could offer.
I left the room for about 20 seconds to get a gatorade and when I returned and took his hand I knew he was gone and at peace and out of that horrible pain.
I still can't believe he is gone so fast...
It is really taking it's toll on me because I cannot seem to stop losing weight and have lost 35lbs and as a result I am having significant heart problems and have been hospitalized on and off for the past almost 2 weeks and have not improved.
We, my family still is in need of some strong prayers and are trying to hold it together and come back together because me,my husband and all of my sons are scattered in different states away from each other and we just need to be together right now.My husband is here with me but only for a few days and I can't do this alone anymore.
Robert B. - October 16, 2008 09:03 PM (GMT)
(((Hugs))) You may already know that I recently lost my son...you know where to find me if you want to talk. I have a strong shoulder and open ears.
Twinkle - October 16, 2008 11:10 PM (GMT)
Jeanette...I am so sorry for your pain. You were there for him...and that is what he needed...YOU. You helped him find peace, and you helped him pass with love in his heart and devotion to God. The pictures are beautiful, and it is wonderful to see that kind of faith and love.
Your health concerns me...and I really worry about this weight loss and heart problem. Please promise me that you will take care of yourself.
You are still here, and I truly believe that you are here for a reason.
I wish I could help you...if only just to listen.
You also know where to find me, and I will help you in any way that I can.
Blessings to you Jeanette.
cornealius - October 17, 2008 04:18 PM (GMT)
Jeanette I will continue in my prayers for you and your family,please know that your brother rests with our Lord,and please take measure to care for yourself!!
Praise be to the G-d and the father of our Lord Jesus Christ,the father of compassion and the G-d of all comfort,who comforts us in all our troubles,so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from G-d.
For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives,so also through Christ our comfort overflows.If we are distressed,it is for your comfort and salvation,if we are comforted,it is for your comfort,which produces in you the patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer.
And our hope for you is firm,because we know that just as you share in our sufferings,so also you share in our comfort.
2 Corinthians 1:3-7
we are here for you when you need us!!
isabel9710 - November 6, 2008 03:48 AM (GMT)
How are you?
DF Host Christine - November 6, 2008 06:58 AM (GMT)
My deepest condolences.
My apologies to you as well,,I had no idea you were under such duress,,I offer you my prayers, many of them,,these pictures were just beautiful.....
Dear God in Jesus name we ask you to be with Jeanette..please be in her heart and hold her heart in your hands..help her to get healthy and take the stresses onto to you loving God...let her know in your way her dear brother is fine and you love him so much and he did go to you and to peace.help her in her grief...let our loving prayers be heard and answered by only you Jesus.