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[Narcissa Black]

Narcissa had not had a quiet last few weeks. Her relationship with Lucius was at its most messed up phase and the this thing with Zambini did not help matters. Narcissa tosssed her book bag to the floor as she plopped down onto a nice big comfy leather chair. She kicked off ehr shoes and placed her feet on the ottoman. The room was mostly empty ecept for a pair sitting trying to figure out chess. But Lucius was ot the only one on her mind.

As of late her sister Andromeda had semmed well a little different. She was ot turning out as others thought. Sure she was a Black and in Slytherin but Narcissa had been hearig rumors and she had started to wonder if they had some tint of truth.

Narcissa pulled her ponytail out and let her long blonde hair fall down her back she then drummed her nails on the arm of the chair. Andromeda was about to graduate ad go out ito the wizarding world ad hopefully live up to the Black name. Sister or not if she did besmirch the family name, there would be hell to pay.

[Andromeda Black]

Oh, how she despised N.E.W.T.S, and truthfully she was at her breaking point. Andromeda was ready to be done with Hogwarts, though she was scared to what the real world would bring her. She had heard murmurs of a leader calling himself Lord Voldemort who was gathering pureblood followers to push the pureblood agenda. She just prayed that her family did not expect her to join up. For truthfully, Andromeda did not know if she believed in this pureblooded agenda and she could not possibly support ideals in which she did not believe in. She had never questioned this agenda before, but since Sirius had ran away from his home, she had begun to think more upon. Oh, how she despised pureblood standards and wish she could rebel like Sirius. Yet, it was so comfortable just to being the status quo.

Andromeda made her way into the common room; she had a bit of studying to do. She turned her eyes for an empty table but instead the fell upon her beautiful baby sister. Andromeda was in no mood to talk to her. She would either chatter endlessly about Malfoy, the prick or try to delve into Andromeda’s thoughts. Andromeda was in no mood to lie or edit the truth. She could not possibly tell her sister about her feelings and thoughts as of late. Cissa would only run off to tell Bella who in turn tell her parents. Though secretly, Andromeda was pretty sure her father knew about them. She did not know how he knew, but she thought he did. Andromeda tried not to make eye contact with Cissa, but Cissa’s blue eyes caught her own and before she knew it she was sitting across from Cissa on the couch.

“How is everything with Malfoy, I mean Lucius?” Andromeda asked in attempt to steer the conversation away from her. It was better to chatter mindlessly about love and romance then talk about Andromeda’s wants to break all ties with the Slytherin house. She hated be tethered to it but it was the only proper, after all she was a Black thru and thru. She placed her bookbag beside the couch, and pulled out her copy of the potions text. She needed to review for tomorrow.

[Narcissa Black]

Narcissa was happy to see her sister she really was. Sure she wasn’t as close to Andromeda as she was Bella but still they were sisters. She just looked at her as she tried to figure what was going on in her mind. The recent running away of her cousin Sirius had gotten those in her family talking and thinking. But the one whom she knew had been affected the most was the one who sat before her. She let out a sigh as she asked about Lucius.

“You know what is going on. Once again he has messed up and didn’t think before he acted. Now I am just going to pay him back. I am not some toy for him to play with when he wants to. “ Narcissa answered as she watched her sister open up a book and start to read.” But really Andromeda I do not want to talk about him right now. I want to ask you something dearest sister. What is going on?” She asked. Narcissa wanted answers as to why the behavior and attitudes of her sister were changing and not for the better. There were fewer and fewer purebloods around and the last thing they all needed was one of their own turning or
thinking of changing sides.

Narcissa’s steely blue eyes darted right at Andromeda as she waited for what her sister would say. Things were starting to change in the wizarding world and sides were going to have to be chose. Cissa did not want to be on opposite sides of family members if she had to be then she would. “ You are a member of the greatest house and yet you don’t seem happy. Why is that.? The only people worth knowing are in the house of Slytherin. Are you still worried about our burnt off the tree cousin?’’Narcissa taunted as she felt ashamed to have Sirius ever been a part of the family. There was no more room I the pureblood world for traitors.

[Andromeda Black]

“Really, Cissa I don’t know why you put up with him” she said shaking her head but not lifting her brown eyes from her text. “He just does not seem to treat you well, Cissa” Andromeda knew she was off topic. Andromeda was slowly picking her words. She did not want to reveal too her lovely sister, she was not about to get blasted off the tree for ideas she had not properly thought about. Of course, thinking was not helping at this moment for the more she thought, the less it got resolved. She needed someone safe to talk to. Maybe some arrangement could be made to talk to Sirius. He knew exactly where she was coming from, or at least in the general area.

“It is a little hard to be happy when I feel the weight of the world coming down upon me” she said looking up from the book nestled in her lap. “How do you handle all the pressure? I can’t live up to these old family standards. I am not pretty like you or alluring like Bella? All I have is my brains. I just feel like I am going to disappoint mother and father.” Andromeda was speaking truthfully but not on the subject she knew Cissa wanted. Cissa wanted to know where she stood on the pureblood ideals. Cissa wanted to know if she was going betray them like Sirius. Though if Sirius felt any way she did, he was the one who was betrayed.

“Really Cissa, do you not think it was a little cruel that we left Sirius off to fend for himself” she asked. “He has not even left Hogwarts yet, and we just let him go? Are we really that uncaring of a family?” she asked again. It really did bother her that they had turned their backs on Sirius. He was still family. He was actually her favorite family member and now he was no longer family. It hurt her. “What if he is right? What if no one is better than anyone else? What if we are all wrong about this all?

[Narcissa Black]

“ The family is not placing anymore pressure on us the we can handle. You have more then brains , you are as beautiful as Bella or myself. The problem is you don’t know how to use what you were given. You could have any man you desire ad do whatever you wanted. We are Blacks and pure and rich what more could a person want. “Narcissa stated as she was getting annoyed with her sister who would not look at her. Sure grades were important but they were not the most important thing. Letting out a sigh she continued. “ Sirius knew well what would happen if her turned his back on his own family. What kind of person just tosses away family ties for people like the Potters?’ She asked leaning over and pulling the book down. But this little talk was not about their blood traitor cousin it was about Andromeda and where she was going those late nights.

As she looked at Andromeda’s face Narcissa knew the sister she grew up with was changing. Sure the sisters were close but that was when they were little kids. Soon they would become adults and be expected to carry on as they ha always been told they should. “ I can handle Lucius ok. He still needs some training , and has some making up to do but I don’t want to talk about that dolt right now. Andromeda I need to know where this new version of views is coming from? You should not be ashamed of who you are you should be proud. This family wont turn on you unless you are stupid like Sirius.”Narcisssa said as she crossed her legs. There were suspicions she had about her sister. Would Andromeda Black really turn on the family that loved her for something that could have her ostracized.

[Andromeda Black]

“The question dear sister, is if Sirius was stupid?” Andromeda asked quirking an eyebrow. She wanted Narcissa to think and not just repeat what her parents had fed her. Views needed to be decided to for one’s self. That is what Andromeda was trying to decide. She knew change did not just happen it was usually some big event or someone. Andromeda was not sure if she wanted to change. It was nice being a Black sister most of the time and well others not so much. She had expected a snappy response from Narcissa, but it seemed at least to Andromeda that she did not reply so quickly. This made Andromeda a little uneasy. She bit her lip trying to think of something to say to fix whatever Narcissa thought of her.

“It is just that there is no proof that pureblood is better. Some of the greatest wizards were muggleborn. Should we not be basing our judgments on fact?” she asked. Andromeda felt like she had just dug herself into a deeper hole. She could expect a howler from her mother, she was sure. Though, Bella might come and personally hex her. “I suppose what I am saying Cissa, is that no one has ever told me why we think the way we do. They have just told me how to think. I want to be able to base my ideals on reality” she sighed running her hand thru her loose brown locks.

“It isn’t that I have changed my views, it is just that how can I convince people of my views, when I have nothing to back them up with?” she asked trying to make this situation better. “Cissa, please don’t tell me I am as pretty as you or Bella. Lying is not very noble. Do I really want someone who wants me because I am pretty, rich and pure? I think I would much rather have someone who likes me for me and not because of my bloodline.”

[Narcissa Black]

Narcissa looked over at her sister and could tell right then and there she was different and something was changing. “To throw away your entire family , everybody you have known all your life for what, another family. That’s like saying we dot matter, and believe me dear sister we do. Yes Sirius was stupid to toss it all away. “Narcissa said as she shook her head in disgust. What Sirius had done was severe and families like the Blacks do not take betrayal lightly. Andromeda was becoming one of them Narcissa would think. The views she had been taught all of her life, seemed to no longer matter. “You have your family to back up what you think and feel. We would never steer you wrong. Don’t tell me you want to toss us aside and run off?” Narcissa prodded as she was starting to get a feel for what was going to happen to her sister after she graduated.

Narcissa got up ad took a seat closer to her sister. Things were beginning to take shape and Narcissa did not want to miss a thing. “ You are a member of one of the most noblest families in the wizarding world. You can have anything you want and anyone you want think about it. The world is your oyster. You just have to be careful how you open it.” She said pushing a few stray hairs out of her eyes. “Don’t throw it all away.”Narcissa finished as she was trying to read her sisters eyes. There was much you could tell about a person by looking deep into their eyes.

Andromeda would soon graduate and that would leave Narcissa the lone one. If her sister messed up and besmirched the family name , it would be Narcissa who would have to deal with things. It would also be Narcissa who would have to deal with any fallout. She now sat back and faced her sister. This little conversation was going reveal a lot Narcissa hoped.

[Andromeda Black]

“To haphazardly follow beliefs blindly might as well be throwing your life away” Andromeda said rather calmly. If the two had not been taught such manners, this discussion could easily escalate but that is not how Blacks fought, well at least not in public. Behind closed door, the Blacks could scream and yell with the best of the barbarians. She was not quite sure what her sister was trying to get at or suggest. Did she think that someone else was changing Andromeda’s mind; this was about Andromeda not following the rest of the crowd. She sighed, Cissa was all about following standards and did not understand this all thinking for yourself thing.

“Cissa” she said lowering her voice. “I have heard rumors about this Dark Lord. I just want to make sure that if I am required to follow him that I know why. I do not want to follow this man blindly. How can any of us be so sure that he is right? Really, Cissa are you going to devote yourself to this cause? For I am sure Bella will” she said almost offhand. She leaned in closer to her sister sitting across from her and stared into her brilliant blue eyes. “I just have a very bad feeling about this. I am not much into the whole seer thing, but this just seems like it cannot be good”

Andromeda relaxed back upon the couch, as to let Cissa know that the serious part of this conversation was over. Andromeda was sure that Cissa would continue to push the subject further. She sighed again and took a deep breath. “Look, Cissa you don’t have to worry about me running off. I have nowhere to run to. I love my family too much to betray it so simply. So my darling sister, there is no reason to worry your pretty little head.”

[Narcissa Black]

Andromeda was working hard to convince Narcissa that all was ok, but come on Cissa could not be fooled. It did not matter what Andromeda said or how she tried to change the subject , Narcissa would get the information she wanted. “ I may only be sixteen dear sister but I can handle myself. I will devote myself to this cause for it is just. Our way of life ad our legacy’s are in danger of being wiped away and I and others wont stand for that. We must preserve our way of life. Do you want to see all w love go because others thing we are wrong in our thinking. What is to say all those unpures are right? Narcissa said with a smirk.

She slightly cocked her head as she was getting a feeling that the only changes were not within the infrastructure of the wizarding world but within her own family. Straightening her head Narcissa reached forward and flicked her sisters hair pushing it out of her face. “ Andromeda I am no fool ok. There has been slow little changes in you, I have seen them. There are few people I can truly count on, people I can tell my secrets to that thy wont use it against me. Sure I have Bella but you are different, there are things I can tell you and not her.” Narcissa said as she took her sisters right hand in-between hers.

“ I don’t want to loose a true confidant that ca hold what I say. Loosing a sister would be a crack in my life I could ever fix.” Narcissa said to her sister as she wanted to sound true. Yes Narcissa was speaking from the heart, she loved Andromeda and didn’t want anything to happen to her. “ You know anything you say to me is between us. If there is something you want to unload you ca trust me.”Narcissa hopped that maybe her older sister would give her a hint of what was going on.

[Andromeda Black]

“Our way of life is in danger?” Andromeda asked in a have to be joshing me tone. “I hardly believe that the muggleborns are going to rise up and overtake us. If there are families that hold onto their pureblood way as fiercely as we do, I highly doubt there is any danger in our way of life, darling sister. Besides, who says change is a bad thing. I do believe Darwin would argue for change. With survival of the fittest and all.” Andromeda was just rambling really. It was easier to ramble then to really answer her sister’s question. “And I never said the muggleborns were right” she quickly added at the end.

Narcissa cocked her head to the side as if to question, Andromeda supposed. Though Andromeda soon realized it was more to size up the problem of Andromeda. Narcissa leaned forward pushing Andromeda’s hair out of the way to stare into her eyes. Narcissa’s eyes were so deeply blue that they chilled Andromeda, but she was not going to look away. Narcissa began to weave her language trying her hardest to get Andromeda to tell her all her secrets. The only problem was that Andromeda had no secrets just doubts. Narcissa took Andromeda’s hand as she continued her plea. Andromeda sighed; she was use to Narcissa’s dramatics. She grasped her sister’s hand back and smiled.

“You won’t be losing me anytime soon, little sister” she said with a slight smile. “Unless you want to you” she said with a smirk. “But now my dear sister, I must really need to get to studying. Afterall, how can I live up to expectations if I do not graduate with enough N.E.W.T.S?” Andromeda smiled kindly standing slowly from the couch and taking her books into her hands. She would have to go up to her dorm to get any peace or quiet. “Do behave yourself little sister. Please don’t let Malfoy treat you awful.” She patted Narcissa on her back and slowly made it to her room.

[Narcissa Black]

Narcissa knew that getting Andromeda to talk was going to be harder then it looked so she had to come up with a better plan. She made a little face and as she watched Andromeda get up Narcissa jumped up. " Wait Andromeda dont go. I need to really talk and it is not about you. Dont go." She said hoping that the bond sisters shared would work here. When she was younger it was easy for Narcissa to get her older sisters attention and to keep it so all hoped were up that the charm was still there." There are things I can tell you and talk to you about that you know I can’t tell Bellatrix. She will think I am weak and well stupid for feeling like this."Narcissa said calling after her sister, she started to follow to her room. This little meeting was not going as planned, but that was ok. Narcissa could turn things around and she would get what she wanted.

Narcissa looked up at the back of Andromeda’s head and started to twirl her blond hair around her finger. “Seriously can you se me talking to Bella about this whole Lucius mess or about how messed up I feel at night thinking about it. There are things I need to get off my chest.” She said in a pleading voice. There was truth in what Narcissa had just said, she did need to talk and Andromeda was the one to open up to.


OOC:If you want to end it let me know.

[Andromeda Black]

Andromeda sighed to herself. Narcissa was being absolutely ridiculous. Andromeda was not naïve and knew what game her darling little sister was playing at. Yet, Andromeda could not just walk away. So being the kind caring sister out of the three she turned around and sat back down on the couch. Andromeda did not say a word. Merlin, why did she always allow herself to be talked back into these types of situations? She knew that Narcissa was not really wanting to talk about herself, for once, but instead trying to get information from Andromeda by putting her into the lull. Or Narcissa would pull, “I told you a secret so you have to tell me one card”.

“Cissa, I am sure Bella would listen to you” she said with a slight smile upon her face. “She has had more experience with boys then I have had.” Not, that Andromeda needed experience, the little that she had collected had been bad enough. One date had talked about Cissa and Bella the whole time, the other was already talking marriage. Both dates had been miserable and nothing Andromeda ever wanted to experience again. Besides, her parents would pretty much arrange her marriage for her as soon she was out of school. Andromeda could only hope that whoever she ended up marrying would allow her to chase her dreams. She knew she would be expected to be the lady of the house, but she knew that was not her place. Andromeda was just not lady of the house material. She had no idea on how to run a household. She also knew she would be expected to pop out a male heir. She really hoped that she got a few years before she was required to do such.

“Dear sister, please tell me about all your problems” She said relaxing against the back of the couch into a relaxing position. “You really could not have screwed up that badly?”

[Narcissa Black]

“ You know as well as I do that when it comes to true feelings or emotions Bella is lacking in understanding I cant say certain things to her for fear she will call me week or to emotional. I do love Lucius and want him by my side till I stop living, but something is different, something has changed. I pushed him away and this time it may have been too far. I am messing with his mind and using another to make Lucius jealous.” Narcissa told Andromeda. What she had just told her sister was the truth, but she also let the information out to help real her sister in. Very few people got to see the emotional feeling side of Narcissa Black, and one of those few were her sisters.

Narcissa’s blue eyes looked around the room to make sure nobody could see or hear what was going on, as she wanted to keep her reputation secure. “I am having fun wit Zanbini and he does make me laugh but , I am being a vixen in all of this that I know but these feelings I have now, I don’t know how to understand them.”Narcissa explained as the ran her fingers through her hair. Thoughts of Lucius and what future she could have with him ran through her hair.

Zanbini has feelings for Narcissa and he was letting it be known. Those whispers had found their way to Lucius and that was causing some strain. “I don’t want to loose him, I can’t imagine my life alone. But sometimes I can’t take it, I can’t take Lucius and I just want to push him out of the way. Like this time. He was such a jerk and did not what I wanted. If he loved me like he claimed Lucius would not have dome what he did.” She spatted out as a slight glisten came to Narcissa’s blue eyes.