- YOU CAN'T TELL ME TO; FEEL, tag; charhrhrhrhrr/nateetetet<3

[SKYE HECQUET]

CAN'T BE TOO CAREFUL

I settled down A twisted up frown Disguised as a smile, well You would have never known I had it all But not what i wanted cause hope for me Was a place uncharted And overgrown You'd make your way in i'd resist you just like this You can't tell me to feel The truth never set me free So, I did it myself You can't be too careful anymore When all that is waiting for you Won't come any closer You've got to reach out a little more More More More, more

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It'd been like a blessing from God when Skye had found the email saying they were all getting a trip to the Bahamas. She definitely needed a break from everything at Ellison, and after finding out even the Uni students got to go if they wanted, she'd been even happier, it meant Isaac might go to. She hadn't really talked to him about the trip though, since it was such short notice. The only ones she'd talked to about going was Bristol and Diana - she'd asked Diana if she wanted to share a room, since she thought Bristol would probably want to share with Rory anyways. The only thing she dreaded about the trip, was the fact that Nate was probably going too. She'd seen him briefly at the airport, but she'd quickly turned the other way. If he didn't want to talk to her, why should she make an effort to talk to him? She didn't want to give him the pleasure of being the one to turn down the other, he'd already done that plenty of times during the last month. Her and Bristol had talked about what they would do during the trip, and while doing so Bristol had tried to convince Skye she wouldn't have to run into Nate there. But that would be easier said then done, as everyone's rooms seemed to be on the same floor. Whenever she'd left the room so far, she'd basically been running through the corridor to the elevator to get away as quickly as possible. That's how badly she didn't want to think of Nate right now.

As she lay on her bed, it was almost past 1am, and she still couldn't sleep. Diana was sleeping quietly in the other bed, making almost no sounds at all. Skye looked over at her phone, picking it up to have something to do. She opened up her photos folder, frowning as she saw a picture of her and Nate. It was from a party a few months ago, when they'd still been bestfriends and had no worries what so ever. She missed his friendship so much it physically hurt her. Whenever someone would mention his name, she'd either feel sick to her stomach, or get these weird chest pains. He'd meant so much to her, and now he didn't want anything to do with her. But what he asked of her was just.. selfish. And he hadn't even explained to her why he couldn't be her friend if she was with Isaac, he'd just given her the "because" reply like always.

She sighed quietly, putting her phone back down and rolling over onto her side, closing her eyes once more. Knowing that she probably still wouldn't be able to sleep. She hadn't been able to sleep normally for a while now, and that wasn't normal for her. Normally Skye could fall asleep in half a second, anywhere at anytime. If she'd decided she was going to sleep that was. But now, her mind kept spinning and she tried so hard to keep away the thoughts she didn't want to deal with, but everytime a single train out thought went to Nate she'd feel nauseous again. It was a constant struggle between trying to keep thoughts away, and trying to fall asleep. Which wasn't easy since her mind was working so hard. Maybe she'd never be able to sleep normally again. What if she had to get some kindof pills? She shuddered at the thought.

[NATHANIEL HART]

I KNOW IT MIGHT SOUND CRAZY

BUT I DONT WANA LET GO

Now I don't mind spending every night if you don't let go

Nate drummed his fingertips on the arm rest attached to his deck chair that was placed on the balcony to his room. If you'd told him two weeks ago he'd be over here in the Bahamas right this second, he'd have laughed in your face. Nate had never been on a plane before, he'd never really travelled. Only across the country and by car. With his parents splitting up when he was a young boy, they'd never really been on family holidays, and if so they'd only gone across to another state to visit family. So in that sense Nate had missed out on travelling. But when he received the email inviting him to the Bahamas, it was something he couldn't refuse. He'd been pretty nervous flying for the first time, but knowing the rest of his hockey friends would be there, eased his apprehension. He'd sat in between Eli and Max on the plane, both of them knowing about his lack of flying experience, and so both had been able to distract him throughout take off. Which in fact, turned out, that Nate enjoyed flying; it wasn't as scary as he had imagined, and was in fact quite exciting.

After landing the boys had headed straight to the hotel together, having all been assigned rooms next to each other; which was bound to end in trouble at some point. Though Nate had chosen to room with Eli, his best friend, which was pretty inevitable. Having had their conversation about their problems previous to the trip, both had agreed to go to a party together to sort themselves out. Nate had put on a brave face throughout, and even hooked up with some random girl, but it wasn't the same. He knew he couldn't go any further with her, so instead brushed her off and gave her some fake number and went to sit with Beau for the rest of the night, knowing he couldn't do much girls wise since he was with Mia. Nate knew exactly what his problems were, why he couldn't go any further with the girl. Skye. And he'd hoped that the trip to the Bahamas, even though he knew full well she'd be there too, would take his mind off her.

And yet, here he sat, gazing across the view of the beach, thinking of Skye. Thinking of the whole thing. Hooking up with another girl had made him pretty terrible. And yet, he'd messed things up so much with Skye, he knew he couldn't go back to her, could he? Narrowing his eyes, he looked back to his room, Eli was out at the beach with some other guys playing volleyball or something, which Nate had refused, saying he needed a shower. Which in Nate~Eli talk meant, he needed to think. And all that thinking had revolved around Skye. He simply couldn't get her off her mind. And he knew why now. He knew that no matter how many times he decided himself, there was only one reason she was constantly on his mind, and it was just bugging him now.

Biting his bottom lip, he stopped the strumming of his fingers, planting his palm firmly onto the the deck chair. He needed to get something done. Pushing himself up off the chair, he walked back into the room, glancing in the mirror to give himself a once over as he made his way through. Opening the door to leave the room, he tried to wrack through his brain, trying to remember something Max had told him earlier. He said something about his friend Diana rooming with Skye, but he couldn't exactly remember which room number it was. He was sure Max had said he was going to be next door to them both, and with Nate and Eli in one room next to Max's it could only mean Skye was in room 1225. Locking the door behind them, he walked only a few steps before finding himself in front of Skye's room. Gulping and taking in a deep breath, he knocked on the door lightly three times.

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[SKYE HECQUET]

CAN'T BE TOO CAREFUL

I settled down A twisted up frown Disguised as a smile, well You would have never known I had it all But not what i wanted cause hope for me Was a place uncharted And overgrown You'd make your way in i'd resist you just like this You can't tell me to feel The truth never set me free So, I did it myself You can't be too careful anymore When all that is waiting for you Won't come any closer You've got to reach out a little more More More More, more

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Skye quickly opened her eyes at the sound of a knock, she turned over to her other side and looked at the time. 1:13am. She sighed quietly, thinking it was probably Bristol coming to kidnap her, she'd probably found some "amazing party!" that they all needed to go to, and Skye wouldn't be able to say no. Even if she'd wanted to. She got up from her bed, quickly grabbing her clothes she'd been wearing earlier and put them on, running a hand through her hair she clumsily put on her shoes, almost tripping over them as she made her way to the door. As she looked in the mirror she passed on the way to the door, she noticed she'd forgotten to remove her earrings. She smirked a little at her forgetfulness, and grabbed her necklace hanging on the chair by the door, putting it on and then opened the door smiling.

Her breath got caught in her throat as she saw who it was. Nate. She instantly felt nauseous, what was he doing there? Had he meant to knock on her door, or was he lost? Maybe he thought this was where Beau or someone stayed. But he didn't look lost. She clenched her teeth as she tried to remember how to breathe. And even though she was feeling all kinds of.. bad feelings from seeing him now, there was a small feeling in her stomach telling her she'd been hoping to see him. Finally she remembered how to breathe, and took a quick breath before speaking. "What are you doing here?" She whispered, there was still the edge of sadness to her voice. She couldn't help it, everytime she thought of him she ended up being sad and depressed again. She'd lost him, and he was probably there to tell her once again that he didn't want to be her friend. What other possible reason could he have for knocking on her door in the middle of the night? If he didn't want to see Diana that was, but if that was the case, Skye would probably fall down dead.

She quickly looked away from him, knowing that by looking at him she'd probably upset herself even more. "If you're here to yell at me some more there's no need." She said quietly, her voice sounding kindof flat. She tried so hard to keep all emotions out of her apperance, she didn't want him to know how much she was hurting from not being his friend anymore. From what she'd heard, he didn't have any problem being without her. She'd been told by random people that he'd already been at a party since they got here, and given some girl his phone number. Even though she kept telling people she didn't care about what Nate did, they still told her everything they could. As if they knew there was a part of her that still wanted to know. And there was.

[NATHANIEL HART]

I KNOW IT MIGHT SOUND CRAZY

BUT I DONT WANA LET GO

Now I don't mind spending every night if you don't let go

As Skye opened the door, Nate had to hold in a gasp. His memory hadn't done her justice. Even the pictures he had on his phone of her, hadn't done her justice. They'd taken plenty of pictures together, at parties, just hanging out. She'd steal his phone when they were together and insist on taking pictures of them both, and then demand him to send them to her immediately. In most pictures he looked off-guard, but every single one brought back a memory. Standing here in front of her though, almost made him want to take a million pictures with his brain to remember what she looked like forever onwards. Even though she'd clearly been woken up at such a late time, she still looked great. Nate hadn't even really taken notice of the time, just that it was dark out. For all he knew it was about 4 am, and he was totally about to get caught out by a teacher chaperone for being out at such a late hour. But still, he had to get this done.

Frowning slightly at her question he realised he didn't even have a straight answer for her. He pretty much just wanted to blurt out everything to her, just tell her everything he was thinking, everything he was feeling. But that just wasn't him. Nathaniel Hart doesn't talk about feelings. It would even surprise many to say that Nate actually had feelings, other than the one strong feeling in between his legs. Nate never let anyone in, he'd never ask for help, purely because he never really needed it before. But now, now he realised having all this inside him, bottled up wasn't working. Even when Eli tried to get him to talk, be that in text messages, Nate still hadn't been able to, purely denying everything. Letting out another deep breath, he finally spoke, "I don't want to yell, c-..can we talk?" he offered, rather meekly.

Nathaniel was known for his confidence. The only other time recently that he'd felt this awkward, and not really knowing what to say, was with Rory, which was way before any of these arguments had even happened. Thinking back, he could almost laugh at his previous self; that situation was nothing in comparison to this one. Watching as Skye had bent her head down, he did everything in his power not to put his hand forward and pull up her chin so he could look at her eyes again. Nate waited for her answer, and that wait felt let agony. She could just tell him to 'piss off' and slam the door back in his face. At that thought he almost regretted not awkwardly telling her he'd got the wrong door in the first place. But in a way, he was kind of proud of himself for not doing that. He'd actually come so far, just to knock on her door and initiate conversation, that he knew he didn't want to turn back now.

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[SKYE HECQUET]

CAN'T BE TOO CAREFUL

I settled down A twisted up frown Disguised as a smile, well You would have never known I had it all But not what i wanted cause hope for me Was a place uncharted And overgrown You'd make your way in i'd resist you just like this You can't tell me to feel The truth never set me free So, I did it myself You can't be too careful anymore When all that is waiting for you Won't come any closer You've got to reach out a little more More More More, more

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She bit her lip slightly listening to what he'd said. She didn't know if she wanted to talk to him.. well of course she wanted to, she just didn't know if she should. What if whatever he had to say would make her feel worse? Would she be able to take that? She'd had a history of depression, and losing Nate as a friend had almost brought her back down. The only thing keeping her from fully going into depression again, was knowing that there might be a chance they could get through it. But what if he was here to tell here there wasn't, that he wanted her to stay clear of him all together, never speak to her again? What if that was what he had to say? How would she take that? She had no idea.

She looked up at him for a quick moment, then down again, letting out a sigh as she did, "Okay, you can come in. But be quiet, cause Diana's sleeping." She said quietly, stepping aside so he could walk in, then closing the door behind him after looking down the corridor to make sure no one else saw him go inside. The last thing she needed now was a teacher barging in telling them they would get suspended for being alone in a hotel room after the curfew. She locked the door once she'd made sure no one had seen them, then turned to look at Nate once again. God he looked just as amazing as before, if not better. She felt this weird tingling feeling in her stomach and her fingers, as if she needed to be closer to him, to actually touch him to make sure he was really there. What if she was just dreaming? Maybe she would wake up any second now and realize it had never happened, he wasn't there, and she wouldn't see him again in a very long time.

She looked over at Diana's bed, she was still asleep. She leaned closer to Nate, almost touching his shoulder as she stood on her toes to whisper in his ear, "Let's go out on the balcony." She turned around and quietly made her way over to the balcony door, looking over her shoulder to make sure he was following her, before stepping outside into the fresh air. It was still very warm outside, and she could her the waves crashing onto the beach and the distant sound of music coming from one of the bars further down the street. She took a deep breath then turned to look at Nate, "What do you want to talk about?" She said, it sounded weird hearing her voice that loudly, since she'd been quiet for so long now, and only whispered when she needed to say something.

[NATHANIEL HART]

I KNOW IT MIGHT SOUND CRAZY

BUT I DONT WANA LET GO

Now I don't mind spending every night if you don't let go

Widening his eyes in relief, and letting out a gush of air that he didn't even realise he had held in as he waited for her to reply. Nate nodded as she stepped to the side to let him into the room, telling him to be quiet cause of Diana being in her room. Nate hadn't had much doing with Diana. He remembered maybe trying to flirt with her once at a party that they had both being attending, after Max had introduced him to her, but it was like trying to get blood out of a stone. At the time he was quite bitter towards her, but kind of got over it as within the next hour he'd already begun hooking up with another girl. And after all, Max talked about her a lot, and how great she was, so she must have been an alright girl. And right now, Nate was kind of glad it was Diana Skye was sharing a room with. Of course the girl was asleep so it didn't really matter, but Nate'd be more awkward if it'd been Bristol or Rory in there instead.

As he walked into their shared room, the dilemma of where they would be able to talk became apparent. And almost as if she had read his mind, Skye leaned over and suggested going out to the balcony. As pathetic as it must sound, it took Nate a few seconds to function again. The last time the pair of them had been that close was when they had kissed in the meadow weeks previous. The worst thing was, right now, he couldn't even see how close the pair of them were cause of the darkness, he could just feel it. As the memory of the meadow started coming back to him in response to the situation, he realised what an idiot he must have looked just standing there, so deciding to move his way to the sliding door and out to the balcony, following behind Skye. The night was still warm out, so he was glad he hadn't brought a jacket round with him. Especially with the whole situation, he had a feeling he'd be feeling more hot and flustered than cold and shivering.

After they had both become accustomed to the situation out on the balcony, Skye had rightfully asked what he wanted to talk about, causing Nate to bite on his bottom lip. Looking to the side instead of directly answering her question yet, he saw a pair of deck chairs, much like he had on his own on his balcony. He nodded towards them, before taking a seat on one of them, leaving enough room for her to sit on the same one as him or the one adjacent to his. He began fiddling with his fingers, a habit he had picked up when he was nervous; which rarely showed since he was usually so confidence. Eli was the only one who really knew about it, cause the only thing Nate got nervous about nowadays was a big game. Looking down at them, he decided to answer. "I miss you Skye."

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[SKYE HECQUET]

CAN'T BE TOO CAREFUL

I settled down A twisted up frown Disguised as a smile, well You would have never known I had it all But not what i wanted cause hope for me Was a place uncharted And overgrown You'd make your way in i'd resist you just like this You can't tell me to feel The truth never set me free So, I did it myself You can't be too careful anymore When all that is waiting for you Won't come any closer You've got to reach out a little more More More More, more

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As Nate walked over to the deck chairs Skye bit her lip, trying to process the situation. She followed him after a moment, noticing he made enough room for her to sit next to him if she wanted. She stood still for a moment, deciding where she should sit. Her entire body and heart was telling her to sit by him, but her mind was basically screaming at her to sit on the other one. She sighed to herself, then sat down next to him. Trying to convince herself it was because that way they wouldn't have to speak too loudly, and there wouldn't be a risk of waking up Diana. She watched as he fiddled with his fingers, she'd never seen him do that before so she kindof studied it, wondering if that was something he did when he was nervous. Nate had never shown any sign of being nervous around her before, maybe this was the first time.

She felt her heart stop as he uttered the words, saying he missed her. She ached to just throw her arms around his neck and hug him tightly, but she knew she couldn't do that. It wouldn't be fair to herself if she'd just forgive him after something that wasn't even an apology from him. All he'd said was that he missed her, he might as well say it just because he thought it'd convince her to do what he wanted. But she didn't want to give in, she didn't want to be weak. "Why?" She asked instead, looking down at her own hands and biting her lip slightly, she realized he might think it was rude of her to just ask him why and not tell him she missed him too. She did miss him, more than anything, but if she admitted that now, she might start crying. And from previous experiances, Nate didn't take crying well.

She took a deep breath, speaking again before he'd have time to answer her question "Look, I.. I miss you too. But this really hurt me Nathaniel.. so if this is some kindof.. I don't know, way to make me feel even worse then don't waste your time." She bit down on her lip hard, holding back the tears that badly wanted to escape. Like she'd thought, it hurt even more admitting to him then it would've if she'd just kept quiet and let him talk. But she also knew that she wanted to be prepared for whatever was coming.

[NATHANIEL HART]

I KNOW IT MIGHT SOUND CRAZY

BUT I DONT WANA LET GO

Now I don't mind spending every night if you don't let go

Nate didn't know what he felt after uttering the words. He couldn't really believe he had admitted it. He hadn't told anyone, not even himself really. And yet there he was telling the girl herself. That had taken a lot of courage within himself. And having her choosing to sit down next to him, rather than opposite him, gave him a slight confidence boost. Then again, after the admitting it, there was awaiting her reaction. How would she take it? Once again, he was the one in a vulnerable position. He wasn't really the one in control here, even though he was the one to initiate it, everything he was going to say to her was to be bounced off of her reaction. If she rejected him, that would be it, he'd storm out of there not caring who he woke up, and everything would go back to how it was before. And he'd be bloody bitter about it. But if she was okay, and accepted his way of putting things, then that would change things a lot.

Licking his lips, realising how dry they were he listened for her answer anxiously. She answered with a question. Surely Skye knew Nate, knew exactly what he was like. Didn't she understand how hard this was for him? And for her to answer with a question, it was hard for Nate not to resort to his old self and close up again, and refuse to talk about it anymore. Heck, he'd probably try to hook up with her or something just to top the whole situation off. But he'd come so far, like he'd actually initiated coming to find a girl, a girl he cared about a lot, to talk about his feelings. Nathaniel Hart had down all that, and so, he wasn't going to turn back now, he refused to. So he waited, instead of giving an answer he waited to see if she had more to say.

And she did. She carried on talking, and what she said brought relief over him once again. She missed him too. Hearing her say his full name though, made him turn to look up at her. Nate secretly really liked it when people gave him his full name, not in an angry manner, but in general. Only his mom knew this though, he didn't go around spreading the fact. Even though the area was badly lit, he could still see the sparkle and wetness in Skye's eyes, making Nate gulp. That was one thing he couldn't handle; seeing a girl cry. He watched as she bit down on her lip, she knew that he hated girls crying, and so was grateful she was at least trying to hold them back. Taking that on board he deciding now was his turn to talk back. "I didn't come here to argue with you anymore Skye," even saying her name was difficult for Nate now, "I don't even know where to start... I just hate the fighting and I miss you Skye, and I don't just miss girls," he was giving her the most awkward answer ever. He couldn't talk about his feelings, so his way of explaining things was pretty messed up. He was obviously trying to explain how he doesn't do feelings, and so he isn't used to this, and how it made him feel. He hoped she understood, usually she did.

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[SKYE HECQUET]

CAN'T BE TOO CAREFUL

I settled down A twisted up frown Disguised as a smile, well You would have never known I had it all But not what i wanted cause hope for me Was a place uncharted And overgrown You'd make your way in i'd resist you just like this You can't tell me to feel The truth never set me free So, I did it myself You can't be too careful anymore When all that is waiting for you Won't come any closer You've got to reach out a little more More More More, more

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Blinking a few times to get rid of the tears forming, she kept her gaze down. Listening to what Nate had to say. She kindof understood what he meant, but it was still confusing to her. She knew he expected her to understand and just get him but it wasn't easy for her to understand him when he himself didn't understand. She was just as confused as he was. That day in the meadow, the moment they'd had. She'd felt something she had never felt before, and he'd just ran off. She was sure he must have felt atleast something too, but when he ran away she quickly did everything in her power to bury those feelings deep inside. And now she was with Isaac. Isaac who was so sweet to her, who talked to her about Nate and how he thought Nate would come around and be her friend again. How he went out of his way to be with her, even when he had finals in school and hardly had time to eat. But here she was, hurting over a guy who was supposed to be just her bestfriend. Nothing else. But she couldn't shake the feelings, no matter how hard she tried.

"But what does that mean?" She finally said quietly, looking up at him for once. As soon as she'd made eye contact with him, it was hard to look away. It was as if this invisible force was trying to push them together, as if she wouldn't function properly if Nate decided he didn't want to be a part of her life anymore. It scared her how she could care about someone so much, when she usually didn't let anyone close enough to care. "I just.. I need you to just say whatever it is you're holding back, because I can't read your mind, even if I do get you more then other girls do, I'm not supergirl.." She kept her eyes on him as she spoke, taking a deep breath when she finished.

She eventually looked down at her hands again, finally able to look away from him. She didn't like the feeling of not being in control, and she knew Nate was the same way. And right now it was as if none of them were in control. They were just Skye and Nate. There were no games going on, no rules to follow. She was just putting every feeling and thought out in the open, for once without holding anything back. She just hoped he'd do the same, because otherwise they wouldn't get anywhere.

[NATHANIEL HART]

I KNOW IT MIGHT SOUND CRAZY

BUT I DONT WANA LET GO

Now I don't mind spending every night if you don't let go

Nate refrained from looking around and distracting himself. He had to keep his mind focussed on what was happening on Skye right now. He knew that the whole idea of coming to the Bahamas was for the cameras, and for them to keep an eye on everyone 24/7. But for once, Nate had to just forget about that an focus. He hoped within himself that they were all filming some party going on late into the early hours, and not waiting around the hotel ready for some drama. Thing is, with how dark it was now, it was hard to even look for any cameras, and to hide from them. And even if he did see any, they couldn't go anywhere else to talk, as the balcony was the only place as to not wake up Diana. They could go back to his room, but for all he knew Eli could have returned, with the cameras following him, and they catch Skye and Nate together and latched onto them asap. He wanted what he was going to tell her, this whole conversation, to be private. But he knew, giving the situation of who he was, and where he lived, that was pretty doubtful.

Biting his lip as she forwarded another question at him, he frowned. Even when she furthered her question, it made him completely cringe inside. He knew he had to explain things more, she was right, he was talking pretty cryptically, and even though she knew Nate well, it was a surprise to him that she even understood much he'd said so far in his explanation. There was no way he was going to get around it now, no more of his messing about, he'd come here for a purpose, to tell her what was going on; and really to see if she had any explanation for it all herself. "My head's been all messed up about this for ages," he began, whilst looking down and fiddling with his fingers again. He hoped she'd wait, let him take his time and tell her. He was no good with this, obviously. "Something is making me miss you, more than I should," he continued, his voice low but precise.

He realised he had to start from the beginning, when he realised he had something holding him back. "When we kissed in the meadow, I felt something, I'd never felt it before.. That's why I ran off," he explained, letting out a deep breath afterwards. "I just had to get away, y'know, sort myself out," he added, glancing up at her then back towards his fiddling fingers. Then he shook his head, realising the only obstacle that could come out of this, "But even when I realised really why I ran off, like what really happened, the next time I talked to you, none of what had happened meant anything anymore," his tone was even lower now, almost in a sad way. Something was still holding him back from explaining everything to her. "Isaac."

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[SKYE HECQUET]

CAN'T BE TOO CAREFUL

I settled down A twisted up frown Disguised as a smile, well You would have never known I had it all But not what i wanted cause hope for me Was a place uncharted And overgrown You'd make your way in i'd resist you just like this You can't tell me to feel The truth never set me free So, I did it myself You can't be too careful anymore When all that is waiting for you Won't come any closer You've got to reach out a little more More More More, more

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Skye kept her gaze down as she listened to Nate speak. She couldn't believe he was actually telling her this, but she was still confused. Did he really mean that he felt something for her? Or was it just in the moment in the meadow? She bit her lip again, thinking about what to say back. Sure it had been a bit weird that she'd gotten together with Isaac so soon after her and Nate kissed, but Nate had always kept telling her how he would never settle down. And she hadn't gotten with Isaac right away, it'd been at least a few days. During those days, Nate had kept his distance, and when they did speak he hadn't said anything about what had happened. He couldn't really blame her for not expecting him too either, since she was supposed to know him. And the Nate she knew would never feel anything for a girl, so why would she be the one to change that?

She sighed, looking up at him once more. "I don't know what to say Nate. You didn't come talk to me, you didn't tell me you were confused. And when we did talk, you didn't even know about me being with Isaac, and still you said nothing. You treated me like normal. How was I supposed to know there was anything else there?" She gulped, her breath getting caught in her throat. The whole situation was confusing her so much, she thought she'd be.. pleased when Nate finally told her why he'd been so mad at her for the Isaac thing. But now she just felt horrible, like she'd made some stupid desicion or screwed something up. And maybe she had.

"And you.. why.." She closed her eyes, taking a deep breath to sort out what she wanted to say, her words stumbling over eachother as she tried to speak at first. "What you're saying is you have.. feelings for me? Like.. more then a friend feelings?" She made a face, trying to wrap her mind around what she was saying. "So if I weren't with Isaac, what would you want to happen?" She finally asked, looking over at him again. She fiddled with the hem of her dress, biting her lip slightly again, a habit she'd been doing a lot more of recently due to all the stress and worrying she'd been doing lately.

[NATHANIEL HART]

I KNOW IT MIGHT SOUND CRAZY

BUT I DONT WANA LET GO

Now I don't mind spending every night if you don't let go

Nate was getting frustrated with this now. He couldn't seem to find the right words to explain things, so everything he was telling her, she was somehow twisting to mean something else. He didn't come here to argue over what had happened. He'd almost wanted to forget what had happened before and for now to move on. But he realised in that split second, there was no way they could move on, without looking back at what had happened to bring them to this point. So even though Isaac was part of this, part of the problem, the two of them, Skye and Nate, were as much to blame for all the arguments also. If not more. Now there were feelings involved with all of this, it made things so much more complicated. He was just glad more people weren't involved, otherwise it'd've become a major drama.
"I distanced myself to have some space to think, it was all so new to me," he began, stopping and looking away again, but instead of looking at his fingers, he stared out in front of him. The club's music down the street was still quite loud and booming, giving the atmosphere around the pair of them an extra effect. ""Yeah well I didn't want to jump straight in there, like I didn't know if you'd act weird with me or not, after I ran off," he responded, "I didn't even have the chance to talk to you about it before you told me about Isaac," he developed. He wasn't raising his voice with her, he was still as calm as possible. Like he'd already told her, he didn't want to argue. But trying to get his point across in a situation like this, where he was having to explain his actions, due to his feelings, was difficult for him. And so it was hard for him to not pick up a temper. His nerves were keeping him grounded though.

And there she asked it, the blunt question. The whole point he'd come round to her room in the first place. He'd been skirting around the issue the whole time he'd been there waffling onto her about what had happened; but he was yet to actually say the words. "I.. uuh.."[/b] he fumbled for his words. He'd only talked briefly about his feelings, or what he thought were feelings, for Skye briefly to Beau and Eli, both of them suggesting he did have feelings for her, but at the time he was in denial. But he'd realised that both of them were correct now. Of course he had feelings for her. "Yeah, I suppose I do," he finally managed to push the admittance out of his mouth, back to looking down at his fiddling fingers now. Before she could even give a response, or for him to feel any relief he added soon after, "But none of that even matters now, cause you chose Isaac," he spoke slower now, letting out a breif sigh after.

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[SKYE HECQUET]

CAN'T BE TOO CAREFUL

I settled down A twisted up frown Disguised as a smile, well You would have never known I had it all But not what i wanted cause hope for me Was a place uncharted And overgrown You'd make your way in i'd resist you just like this You can't tell me to feel The truth never set me free So, I did it myself You can't be too careful anymore When all that is waiting for you Won't come any closer You've got to reach out a little more More More More, more

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Skye instantly felt even worse as he said that none of it mattered anymore because she was with Isaac. All she could keep thinking about was how badly she wished he'd told her right away after the moment in the meadow, that he'd told her he needed to think, that he was confused, or just anything. And then maybe everything would be different now. She took a deep shaky breath, trying to push away all the horrible feelings she was consumed by. "I didn't chose Isaac, because I didn't know there was a choice.." She sighed again, hoping he'd understand what she meant by saying that. She really had been a 100% sure that Nate wouldn't want anything with her, because that's what he always said. Even when they'd talked about Isaac, he'd still said she was imagining things, that he didn't have feelings for her and that he wouldn't want a girlfriend. Had he really changed his mind because of her?

"I don't know what to do Nate.. I feel horrible." She closed her eyes and covered her face with her hands, not wanting him to see how sad she actually was. Sure it was dark and he probably wouldn't be able to see that much anyway, but she didn't want to take any chances. All she wanted right in that moment was to just hug him and say everything would work out, that she could just snap her fingers and make it all okay. Or that she could go back in time and tell herself to just give him some time, but what if the only reason for him realizing he felt something for her was because she was with Isaac? Because now he didn't have the possibility to be with her, like he did before. Now he didn't have her.

"I'm sorry, I really am." She wiped her eyes, frustrated with herself for crying again. But there was just too many emotions in her right now. "I wish things were different. Because I.. " She hesitated for a moment, wondering if he'd really want to hear her say it, or if it would just make things even worse. "I felt something to that day.. and it surprised me. But I guess I always felt something for you, but I knew that it wasn't possible for there to be anything between us, so I just kindof.. denied it. I don't think I was aware of it until that day. Not for real, at least." She looked down at her hands again, wondering if she'd done the right thing with telling him how she felt, or if he'd rather she wouldn't have.

[NATHANIEL HART]

I KNOW IT MIGHT SOUND CRAZY

BUT I DONT WANA LET GO

Now I don't mind spending every night if you don't let go

They were going round in circles. No matter what Nate explained, however brief and unhelpful it was, Skye would say the same thing contradicting him again. It pretty much correlated with their whole relationship. They'd argue, then be best friends again, argue, then be best friends again, and so on. Looking back, it had been quite fun, there was no dull moment between them. But now feelings were involved, there was no way of explaining it other than it being frustrating. "But I never had the chance to tell you, within a couple of days you'd already started up with Isaac," he forwarded again. But he could see where she was coming from; how was she to know that Nate had suddenly changed? Then again, how was Nate supposed to know he'd suddenly changed until that moment hit him. No one was to blame really here, it was all just a big mess.

Nate could hear the sadness in her voice, he didn't even need to look at her. Hearing someone he cared about a lot, someone he liked, hurting though, because of him, it made a pretty big impact. "Me neither.. I just knew I had to tell you how I felt now," he responded, biting his lip and looking out across the balcony once again. He wanted to hug her, he wanted to make her feel better. But there were all these boundaries between them now; not only cause of Isaac, but they'd built them up themselves. He just hoped she didn't cry, cause that would truly crush him. He didn't feel guilty about telling her right now, okay, maybe the timing wasn't perfect. But he knew that as soon as he realised he had to tell her immediately. Even if he had had a slight epiphany right after the meadow, after being told about Isaac, he'd gone into his denial state once again. Only after having some time to really think, had he realised.

As she apologised, he saw her hand movement to wipe her eyes. She was crying. But before he could give any acknowledgement she carried on talking. And what she said hit him like a tonne of bricks. She had feelings for him too. He should have felt good, elated even. But given she was taken, she was with someone else, he just felt terribly sad. "I'm sorry too.." he responded after, "It was all just so hard for me to realise, and I guess.. I worked it out all too late," he said, looking over to her now. Funnily enough, after finally talking about his feelings, he wasn't that scared about hers. He wasn't too scared to stay either, he didn't even feel like running away from this. He just didn't know what to say. Was he really going to go as far as saying he'd wait for her? "I don't want to make you feel worse, but can I ask you a question?" he suggested, still keeping his eyes on her. "If you had any feelings for me what so ever, why did you say yes to Isaac? It's not fair on anyone," he questioned, and he meant it. It wasn't even fair on herself to deny feelings like that. And he knew, keeping stuff like that bottled up just didn't work.

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[SKYE HECQUET]

CAN'T BE TOO CAREFUL

I settled down A twisted up frown Disguised as a smile, well You would have never known I had it all But not what i wanted cause hope for me Was a place uncharted And overgrown You'd make your way in i'd resist you just like this You can't tell me to feel The truth never set me free So, I did it myself You can't be too careful anymore When all that is waiting for you Won't come any closer You've got to reach out a little more More More More, more

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She felt like someone had just ripped her heart out as he said it was too late, Her inside's were basically screaming at her to tell him it wasn't too late. It couldn't be too late, this was Nate, this wasn't some random guy she could live without, this was Nathaniel Hart, the only guy she'd ever thought she couldn't live without. It just couldn't be too late, because if it was, she didn't what would happen to her. No, it couldn't be. "Don't say it's too late..Please." she whispered, keeping her gaze down still. She just wished she could forget about everything, about the boundaries and the 'right thing to do' and just be with him, go somewhere and just feel happy and safe again. Like she used to be when she was with him. But she didn't feel safe now, she was vonurable and scared. Like her whole world might come crashing down on her any second now.

She bit her lip again, thinking over what he'd just asked her. She didn't know the right way to explain it to him, without sounding like a.. well bitch. And without hurting his feelings. "I guess.. I was so sure there was no chance for.. you and me. So I went back to denying I felt anything. And Isaac was just.. he was different, he didn't know anyone that knew you and it felt like a whole other life. Another me, when I was with him.. and I guess, it's not that I don't have feelings for Isaac, because I do. But it's not.. real." She sighed, looking up back at Nate again, hoping she didn't sound too confusing.

"I think I gave up. I buried everything I felt for you, and then I made up for it by instantly going for someone else. And I know that's wrong." She said quietly, she just hoped he wouldn't judge her for doing that. It had to make atleast a little sense to him. It happened to a lot of people, didn't it? When they thought the one person they truly had feelings for, didn't want them and never would. They moved on. But deep down inside still kept those feelings buried. Because feelings for someone didn't just disappear. That's what Skye thought at least. They could change, but not disappear.